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May You

The world needs something. Do you know what the world really needs a lot more of? Maybe you can guess? Okay swell, now everyone should know!

May you have peace of mind. Really! To be living in these times and these uncertain moments of time. Everyone is going to need someone to take it easy on them. You know, cut people some slack for the modern days.

It is important. You can not be too uptight these days, otherwise; you are likely to implode upon yourself. Everyone is pushed to the limits these days, everyone needs some space, some room to breath.

And if you are feeling really stressed, it is best you avoid people all together. Just until you get calmed back down and can deal with the day to day stress of life.

How to cool down

If you can do some breathing exercises and cool off your heart and mind a little bit, then venture back out into the world of the crazy life that we are all living.

To be able to live in this world, one needs the skills of a monk. You have to be emotionally strong enough and spiritually strong enough to weather the storms of life.

It seems you also need the strength of a soldier. Because there are fights out there looking for you. The best advice I can give you is to be a member of the “No Sword” school of thought. That is while carrying a sword, it’s not the first thing to settle the dispute.

Really though, you have to think like a monk. People are hard headed in this world. And they are often ignorant of their actions and how cruel they are. However sometimes you have to bear the blows and roll with it. Not always; but sometimes it is necessary.

May you have peace. May you have peace of mind. Cultivate your monk like personality and grow spiritually to the point that these problems in this world don’t require a sword to settle the problems in your favor.

Solutions

It is the best one could hope for under the circumstances. Eventually these cruel people will have to have a cure for what plagues them. Everyone these days seems to have fallen short of being human kind.

May you search for peace. Look for it. Seek it out. Maybe the edge of the sword will not find you while you are sleeping in your bed.

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The Stranger

After forty-five years in this world some of the mystery is missing. Sometimes a stranger will smile, and in passing the whim that some might know of a life outside this world. Seems there are many strangers in this world.

Seems to me; this is not my world. The current situations in this world leave no doubt in my mind, this world is a fright. Seems like I’m the one who is a stranger in this world. If it were my world, there would have been someone to spend time with me. Hence, my belief that this is not my world.

My world would have been kinder. By far. I’ve complained about the mis-treatment in this world for a long time. Seems no one has any feelings of sympathy for me about it. They must believe I’m not one of them, thus my problems are my own. It really feels like no one cares. It really does.

This isolation isn’t healthy. I have searched for twenty years for a way to make it better. However, I’ve been treated like this stranger in this world for much longer than that. Seems there isn’t one person in this world that knows more than my first name. This isolation isn’t working out very well. Tired of being treated like a stranger.

This isolation has been a problem a long time. I have asked them to make it better. They however seem to be deaf and fail to listen. It doesn’t bother them I’m always alone like this. A man at my age, should have had a family and loved friends in my life. Seems there is none of that.

I’m not popular. It feels like I’m not even liked in this world. Sometimes it is a lot to have to bear. Some kind of curse is what it feels like to me. As if someone were doing me harm from not far off. Wish that I could break this curse that is upon me. I’ve had to get tough and endure the pain of it. I wonder how much you could endure? Think you are tough? My life would kill you. It has been rough.

There are no friends in this world. I’m always alone. No one stays in touch with me. Seems no one even gives a shit. I’ve been forgotten a long time. Maybe it doesn’t matter. However, when you treat people living in your world like total strangers, it doesn’t make for good feelings from those who would like better.

At this point, humans have fallen out of my favor. I used to esteem them fairly high on the list. Didn’t know the difference back then. But twenty years of torture and hell have changed my viewpoints. Its all different now. Its sad that I have been here forty-five years, and that at this point in my life; I feel this isn’t my world.

I feel like a total stranger in this world. No real friends. No job. No girlfriend. No one really cared. They aren’t bothered by my situation, as if I’m not their kin. But I am someone’s kin. Maybe they aren’t from around here. I kind of have my hopes set. This world is a mess.

I’m bored with the status quo. Life is. Things are. I wanted a lot better. Feeling like, damn. No one to spend time with me. This isolation has been tough to deal with. Seems no one really cared either. As if I didn’t matter enough for them to give a damn.

Maybe there are a lot of people that feel like I do? Maybe. People need to be better. Life has to get better. It really does. Because if life isn’t going to get better, then by all means it has to get much worse before they will listen. Somehow, I believe they won’t ever listen. Maybe I’m wasting my time? Maybe!

Humans aren’t good companions. Never been made to feel like this world is going to work out for me. Maybe its time I moved on to some other world in this galaxy. Might be better. Maybe there is someone else in this universe that misses me. I hope so.

See my video about making life kinder and better in my next post following this one. Go on, watch the video. It is short and to the point. Its about having compassion and showing people kindness.

Thanks!

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Project Write A Book

Thoughts On Being An Author

There are many activities in life that can bring a person happiness. Having a wonderful life is just the start, there are some things in life that everyone should try at least once.

For me, this includes having written a book, or two. Being an author has a special kind of rewards to it. To say that writing an entire book with your own two hands and publishing it is a feat would be an understatement.

Writing your first book will make you pull your hair out. Learning to think in words and writing well, while trying to keep the plot strait, and not loose sight of the goals, it is quite the task to perform.

It gets easier once you write on a regular basis. However the first book will always have a special place in your heart as something you can be proud of having done. It takes an incredible amount of focus and attention to detail to write an entire book.

It is something everyone should do. Really! I think most people should write at least one book in their lifetime. With the technology we have available today, it is not only possible; it is also very practical.

Learn To Write, Learn To Think

People that write, are also people that read. My thinking in this matter is that if people were to write more often, then maybe they would start reading a lot more too.

While there is no proof that writers read more, I think it is sensible to believe that people that write read more often. I know my ability to read and write have improved over the years.

However, I have not undertaken the massive effort to write a new book in some ten years. While I have dabbled in short stories off and on over the years, actually writing a full book; daunting and frightening.

This may be one reason I recommend that others take on this project of writing their first book, because people need the experience of writing that first book and being scared shitless and out of their minds with trying to edit it.

I want the best for you. I really do. Hence, my suggestion that you take the time, learn to write; then start writing your first book. If you start now; four or five years from now, you might make it happen.

Results Are Few, But Worth It!!

Don’t expect success. Don’t expect rave reviews. However, what you will learn about the process and the effort it takes to complete this project are invaluable. It’s the kind of feeling you couldn’t get from watching TV.

Take the time, start today. Write the book that you want to read. Someone has to, because if they don’t; this world will be book poor in no time. There is a quote: Books will get you through times with no money; but money won’t get you through times without books.

That is likely very true. I wouldn’t know; the only thing I have are my books. It might be nice to have a taste of what the other side feels like, but I think I will keep most of my books.

Like I said, there is no experience like writing and publishing your first book. It’s a gigantic task. It takes months or years of effort, and will make you question what you know. You have to write something that you really believe in. See where it takes you; you might like it.

Please write something that puts beauty back into life. We have enough problems with life as it is. However, the issues of how to resolve conflict are subjects of entire library’s. Yet, remember to write something with a sense of hope, and make it beautiful so that the reader wants to read it.

Have Some Love

This takes being really in love with the words you write. You have to have a respect for them. Words and ideas can change the world, given enough time and skill.

As far as writing a new book; I have my doubts about taking on this task in the near future. Maybe someday, when I have the idea that really sits with me like a ton of bricks. My interest is really in putting something beautiful back into life. I’m going to have to work on it for a while.

Thus, you should start today. Because it may take many years for your book to come to completion. It is an important project that everyone should undertake once in their lifetime. It is also something that everyone should have to endure too. It will change your opinion of the task of writing good books.

Maybe if enough people write their first book, they will start to appreciate what good writing is really about? Maybe. One can always have hope. Maybe your book will change the world; give it a shot.

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Books I have Read

In all fairness, I’m not reading much these days. I have been focused on writing and doing creative things. In addition to writing, I have been making music, playing with making video, and doing photography. That said, I’m including a link to all the books I have read in the last twenty years.

I have however read a number of books in my lifetime. About a hundred and forty to be told. If you are interested in seeing the books that I have put on my shelf, check out my goodreads account.

You might find something new to read. There are a few not on there yet too. I guess I need to update my list again.

I’m thinking that I might start reading again, if I can find books worthwhile to read. Its tough these days. I’m a picky eater when it comes to what I want to put in my head.

My books haven’t sold a single copy. Its tough tits, I had hoped to sell some of my books. Seems I’m not established as a writer in this world and in this day and age. Maybe someday.

You can check out my books on my website: MY Digital Chaos, while you are there, check out the photography too.

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Thoughts On Validation – What Makes You, You?

Thoughts On Validation

A few days ago, a subject came up about someone else and how they must feel about themselves. My Mumz said the persons self esteem must be rock bottom because the only validation she seeks is online. Below are a few of my thoughts on validation.

After giving it some thought, I have reason to believe there are a wide variety of ways people seek validation. Let’s examine a few of them starting with the biggest first.

Money In The Bank

Money – Lets face it, those with money feel validated and like they are special. They have either worked for their money or they have inherited it through their family. Therefore, they are the most privileged among the humans. Because, they have special validation, because they have the power and the money. Those with the most money need no validation from poor people because they are above them.

Having Employment

Having A Job – This one is nice. You get validation from making your living and from the work that you do. It is really one of the best ways to feel valid. If you love your job and are making money at what you do then you feel a sense of accomplishment and like you have validation from doing good work.

Having Love In Your Life

Having A Significant Other – Having someone in your life that is willing to commit their whole life to you. Let’s face it, having a warm loving relationship gives people a sense of validation. Having someone that is willing to marry you and have your children is a great way to feel valid. It will make you feel like a man, it will make you want to do better because you want to make their lives better.

Having Family That Loves You – Having relationships that are in good working order and having peace of mind that there is nothing you could ever do that would make them not love you, this has a sense of security to it. Its a form of validation. Everyone needs to have family that loves them.

Having A Few Good Friends

Having A Few Good Friends – This gives you a sense of belonging and having meaning in your life. If you lack all of the above, then having a few good friends will help make up for the hurt of being poor, alone, and jobless. If you have none of the above, you are a special kind of problem.

The Problem

In my life, they have withheld the affection of giving me the validation I needed. But the realization that I don’t need their approval is such a feeling. Human society is set up so everyone needs some kind of validation and sense of belonging to live a happy life. When they deliberately withhold those things to get you to conform to their evil ways, you have to make the choice to cut them loose.

I’ve been nineteen years without a job, friends, or significant other. Been isolated, poor, and abused for a very long time. My family doesn’t care about the work I perform, and it doesn’t earn any kind of living.

I’ve decided that the human race has lost my respect.

I certainly don’t need validation from the human race that I’m any good. They couldn’t live my life. That is for sure. No one would have lived through what I’ve been through. It has almost killed me a few times.

So on matters of validation, the human race has a lot of things that make them feel valid, having money, having jobs, having love in their life, and having a dog.

What They Lost

Therefore, what they have lost is their humility and what they were supposed to be, which is human kind. They have been cruel to me. Wish it would have been better. I sure could have used some help. No one was willing to extend the offer.

Humans are victims of the insane. They couldn’t think if they wanted to.

In conclusion, what I think of them is below average. Because of the way they have treated me. They got what they wanted, they hurt me a lot. Wish they could have been kind. The world is a sick place. Seek your own salvation; friend see to it.

Those are some of my rough thoughts on validation, there is more!

Written by Christopher Thomas, founder of MyDigitalChaos.net

This post has been edited to make it kinder.

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Profound Understanding

Life is. Things are. Sometimes you have to deal with it. That in itself isn’t very profound. However the idea that this thinking led me to is extreemly profound.

Why is there so much hate in the world? Do you know or understand it? If you do, then my thinking will make perfect logical sense to you.

For the rest of you that don’t understand it, I’m going to break the news to you. Here goes. There is hate in this world because people are unhappy, a result of their unhappiness is that it comes with a certian amount of baggage.

The baggage is hate. Because people are so unhappy with the current problems, there is more hate in the world because of it.

That is the simple explaination. There is a lot more to it than that, but that is the idea in a nutshell. You may be wondering how I arrived at this profound conclusion on my own?

The answer is I had to wallow in my own misery for twenty years of feeling devistated and laid low. When I started letting go of my rage, and starting looking at things for what they are, then it all became very clear.

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Leaving

Why We Are Leaving

There seem to be two sides in this world. Everyone is unhappy these days and everyone is trying to stab each other in the back. There is no peace in this world. It is a sad state of affairs.

The hostilities in this world are more than one can tolerate. The weapons they use such as stonewalling, silent treatment, isolation, and gas lighting are ruthless and cruel. Our kind have grown weary of trying to reach their hearts and minds with words, and they refuse to listen.

The isolation in this world is beyond cruelty. Our kind have asked them to stop hurting us like they have done. They refuse to listen. They will not rectify the situation or make it better. We find their actions cruel and ruthless.

It is time to leave this world. Our words have fallen on deaf ears far too long for us to continue trying to use logic and reason with them. Obviously they are too ignorant to listen.

The only item left in this mess is to get justice from the true God for the abuse, torture, and violence they have done to us. They can not be allowed to do this kind of treatment to others that may come into this world and try to live here.

They have created a hostile world. We can not live in this world with them like it is. They want a living death for warm sacks of shit. Pity they don’t know how to live. Let the dead bury the dead. We want to live.

We wanted life to be better for everyone. They can not listen, or understand. And they have become senseless persons in their thinking. They are not even teachable in their thinking. It is a waste of time to try to reason with them. They are deaf and blind. Clearly.

Pity. The world is going to sink. Everyone on spaceship earth was supposed to be acting like crew. What we got is a lot of damn idiots.

So Long, and Thanks For All The Fish

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Creative Environments

Creative Advice

This is a short essay I wrote about creative environments. It’s not a complete book, it is however only some very basic ideas to help people get started. It is by no means complete. Hence it is not perfect. Please don’t base life upon this document. It’s not a guide, it’s not even any good. To be honest no one will ever read it, because I’m not perfect.

This is however some idea when the chet hits the fan how to deal with some tough times. Life isn’t always perfect. Neither is everyone living. To be honest my condition isn’t this bad; it just feels like it. Most days I’m in a lot of pain. I based some of my document on problems that could face, and what people can do under similar conditions.

I hope that you are never faced with problems that require you to use this document. Life can be rough and to make it a man has to be tough. I never thought that I would have to get this hard, this tough, and this mean.

It’s sad that they wouldn’t help me, and they certainly wouldn’t help me make it better. Only a few more failures on my part and they will have destroyed my personality in whole. It’s only taken twenty years of trying to break me down, destroy my ego, and humiliate me in ruthless isolation. Such effective tools.

Get Busy

Make life better for everyone so people don’t need this document. However if they make life so bad that everyone needs a copy, then I will have failed. Therefor here is the link to the document that is of use in harsh conditions. When the only thing keeping you together is your creative lifestyle; this may help!

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The Boomers Have It All Wrong

Truth!!

The world is a mess. Trying to conform to an insane world, makes you insane. The lies and deceit that make up what is normal is taking its toll. They are using double binds to complete the crazy making process. Obviously the boomers have it all wrong.

I’ve read things about Generation X, some say they are Nihilist and that they don’t give a shit about anyone but their own individual selfs. I want to paint a different picture, the problem isn’t that Gen X is a bad thing. The problem is we reject the conformity of the previous generations, that and we don’t stand for their lies.

Conformity to an insane world, makes you insane. The boomers have tried to make everyone conform to their insane ideas and way of life. Which results in looking like we are crazy because we can not reconcile their insanity with what we know and believe to be true.

The boomers live life like zombies. They want warm bodies with clean faces, they don’t want more than that from anyone. They think a life well lived is a living death. Jesus words ring true here, “Let the dead bury the dead.” We want to live. We want life better for everyone.

A Better Life

No one wants a living death. We want life to be better. This mindless zombie shit should come with no excuses. They are Wrong. The boomers have it all wrong. The living dead don’t want anyone with a dirty face. Which is hypocrisy. They have never had a dirty face, because a living death isn’t living. Therefore we reject their suspect bullshit.

Because life is meant to be lived, a living death isn’t living. There are mistakes, and problems, but without having the experience, then life isn’t worthy of living. They want to take all the fun out. And we can not stand for that. And people that make problems because they want us to fail are cruel.

No one can stand for the insanity they try to force upon us. Because, living a life that is no better than a living death is suicide. Its pointless and stupid. We must reject their stupidity at the way they want to live. Because to each their own, if they want a living death, then they should live that way. However forcing that upon their offspring is stupid.

We want more to life. We want to live, because we love life. Life gets better with use. Don’t keep life in a special box. Take it out, dust it off, and live your life. Special occasions are all the time. Our life is meant to be used. Life is not meant to be kept in a sealed box. It gets worse with being stored for the future.

For A Better Future

Make life better for everyone, be kind. Stop trying to force your insanity on us. We won’t accept it. We don’t want your idiot rules and your living death. Therefore we want life better, not their zombie cat shit.

Those that are remembered as fighting a war against zombies and idiots will be Gen X. They are the warriors and the Misfits that bring forth change. We can not allow this mess to continue, it stops here. So the future can be beautiful again.

Because war is ugly, and brings out bad things in people. This war has to end with a better world for everyone. Clearly the boomers have it all wrong, life is a gift. Use it!

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Written by: Christopher Thomas, founder MyDigitalChaos