The Last Day

This story was written about a year ago. Posting here, for your thoughts, and ideas.

The Last Day

From a deep sleep I wake up in my bed. It is six thirty in the morning. I look at my wife, and think, “Shit, I don’t believe this is my last day to live.” It’s just not been enough time to really live. I get up and go brew coffee. A few minutes later Dana comes in and gives me a hug.

“You know today is my last day alive, right?” I say to her as she holds my hand in hers. “Oh honey, I’m busy today, I know you told me two weeks ago, but I’ve got plans today.”

I shake my head in disbelief and wonder where I went wrong. “I was hoping to spend today with you, and to have some of our last moments together. You can’t do that for me?”

She looks at me in a disapproving manner for scolding her, “No dear, I’m sorry, I have to take Jane to Disneyland today, I had the plans months ago.”

I let go of her hand and just search her eyes, looking for some sign she is joking. I can not believe what I’m hearing. She doesn’t invite me to go with them, and she is serious.

“If it will make you feel better, I can hold your hand tomorrow when you die, would that help?” she says to me looking like she is serious.

“Yeah, okay. Well I hope you and Jane have a nice day. Don’t stay out too late.” I say to her and take my cup of coffee to the other room to try and pull myself together. I can not believe what a bitch she is.

I check my email, everyone knew weeks ago that tomorrow is my last day to live in this world. So far I’ve heard from two people. I thought that I had friends, or people that at least liked me. It’s like I’m already dead to them. Maybe for all practical purposes, I’m as good as dead to them.

Dana is getting the house, and everything I’ve worked the last fifty years of my life for. There is no other plans really, just the fact that tomorrow I will die.

No email. Life has been rough. Maybe it’s good I’m going to die, no one will miss me. They don’t give a shit. I get dressed, and take my coffee seriously for the last time.

I go for a walk, then a long drive to nowhere. Just driving in my car. No one to spend the time with, its like life is going to stop for me, yet they will all go about their lives like nothing happened.

Maybe it’s like I wasn’t even really here at all. Maybe I will be the distant memory of what they knew, but nothing more than that.

I can’t believe how they have treated me. It’s like they take pleasure in knowing I’m leaving. Wish it were better. I see a guy begging for something to eat on the side of the road in front of a restaurant. I stop the car and get out.

The guy looks like he’s in bad shape, maybe hasn’t eaten in a week or something. I approach him cautiously but directly, and wave from about ten feet away.

“Hello, are you hungry?” I ask him. “Oh sir, I’m starving, its been a while since I had something to eat.” I ask him if he would like to eat a good meal at the restaurant, and he looks at me like I’m crazy.

“I can not afford to eat there.” he says to me. I motion for him to follow and say, “Don’t worry, I’m buying, today’s my last day in this world, tomorrow I will die. It is my treat.”

He follows me, and we walk up to the front door of the restaurant. He looks at me with a sorry look and says, “Are you sure you’re buying, no tricks?”

I feel pity for him, “No tricks, I’m buying.” I say to him.

“Okay, thank you sir.”

In the process of an hour I try to get to know the man, and spend the time I could have been with Dana to get to know him a little bit. Seems he’s had some unfortunate life events, and some real trouble in his life.

He eats a meal, of modest means and thanks me when I pay for it. I ask his name, and where I can find him again. Then go my own way. I reckon I won’t see him again, but you never know.

My phone beeps, its a text message from Dana, it’s a picture of her and Jane at Disneyland. Looks like they are having a good time. Maybe they are having the time of their lives. I’m not. Not sure how I want to spend the rest of the day. I go back home, and look at my will.

Dana is well off, she gets everything. Tomorrow at six am, I will be dead as nails. She said she would be there to hold my hand, but after the way she treated me today, I’m not so sure its really going to be great.

I feel sorry for the guy that needed a meal. Dana has never had it so good, she is set for the rest of her life, even without my money and goods.

Then much to my dismay, Dana calls at eight thirty at night and says they have met some people, they are going for drinks, and she won’t be home tonight at all.

I’m like, “Shit” I had hoped to spend some of the evening with her. It’s like the final straw, you know? The one that broke the camels back.

I call my lawyer, and have my will changed. I decided to leave the house and everything I’ve worked for to the homeless bum I met today and had a meal with. That should piss Dana off. Serves her right for being such a bitch.

With that I go to sleep and having completed my life, find that I await to die.

When I wake up, I’m somewhere else.

Mercury Retrograde Page

Sometimes there are things you want to know. It may not be useful to everyone; however, some people may find this page of use. I designed a page that shows the current status of Mercury retrogrades.

At first, I thought that I could build the calculations myself, and learn how to do this all myself. After buying some books on Astronomy and trying for about three weeks to do the calculations in perl. Well, to be honest, it was a lot more difficult than I thought it was going to be.

There was however a solution. Someone had taken one of the books, Astronomy On The Personal Computer by Montenbruck and written it in PERL. This was most useful, as they had already done the work, and translated the PASCAL programs into working PERL code.

I did have to ask for directions, but they were most helpful, and I was up and running in no time. So it didn’t actually take very long to get a working solution if you don’t count the time I spent trying to do the calculations myself.

Here is the link to the page I designed: Mercury Retrograde

This should be a fully functional page with the time in GMT -7 time zone for when the next Mercury retrogrades will be. It should work for as long as my site is up and running. It took a lot of effort to make this work. I was happy to have it done. I really was.

The calculations are provided by Astro::Montenbruck perl module, and the results are stored in a database, which PHP uses to get the date and time. It also shows the current status if Mercury is direct, or in retrograde.

It was a fun project to work on, I learned a lot about it. So head your browser over to the page I made, and check it out. You never know how the next Mercury retrograde is going to be. Sometimes, those can be real pain the ass.

Check the rest of my website out while you are there. Lots of content, and things I’ve been working on for the last year or so. Thanks for reading my blog, and taking the time to check this out. Much appreciated.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Photo Credit: Image by Bruno Albino from Pixabay

Oppression Sucks

You know, they wouldn’t let me talk, and when I did; they didn’t listen. Thus, I wrote an awful lot. Because it was the only way I could express myself in a way that I was not being interrupted. Oppression sucks; seems, no one could care!

What I have found will shock you. The truth is the situation could not really ever be more ruthless cruel. I could not imagine the situation being worse than it is, may that never happen. It is already so damn bad; it is torment.

What I have found is that they do not read what I write. It seems they look at it; yet, they fail to understand it. Not sure if this is because they lack the intelligence to understand, or because they refuse to listen to me as a being. Perhaps, both!!

Ignore Me – That will be fun

Seems, they get away with ignoring me, my effort, and anything I may be doing. It is all treated like worthless trash. I’m not anyone to them. As a matter of a fact, my mortal family are all strangers to me.

I don’t know them, not at all. I doubt they know me. They ignore my work, they treat me like I matter not to them. The neglect, indifference, and isolation have taken a real toll on my state of mind.

The isolation is hurting me the worst, but you know what? Being alone is better than spending time with idiots. Damn tired of the world like it is. Want my life to be better, and no one cares.

They treat all my effort like it doesn’t matter; it is all met with the same level of indifference, and total disregard. Oppression sucks. They could not care, because it is not any skin off their nose!

That is the real truth of the matter, it is no skin off their nose to leave me like I am. They couldn’t care. Doesn’t bother them that isolation so thick if it were shit; you couldn’t stir it with a stick.

Doesn’t bother them to hurt me like this. They couldn’t care.

Pity – Life Should Have

Life should have been better. The oppression sucks. And why do they treat me like they do? Because their political viewpoints don’t match what they expect from me as free living being. It is as though, what they really want is a warm sack of shit to love. They want someone that agrees with everything they want.

Life should have been better. This oppression sucks. I guess, the world is a fu*ked up place. Because people are not able to think, they are not able to agree, and they are not able to understand.

The real truth of the matter; if people understood the viewpoint, they would agree. However, they are not able to understand the viewpoint. Somewhere at the end of all this hate; life has to change!

Oppression Sucks

I wrote, because they wouldn’t let me talk, and when I did talk; they did not listen to me. They did not understand the meaning of what I was saying. Them using silence to shut me up will only work for so long. Eventually, this will change. Someday, someone is going to come along and expose them for what they really are. Oppression sucks, and people will only tolerate so much. Someday, someone is going to expose them for what they really are.

They could have been kind. They want warm sacks of shit. And they silence anyone that disagrees with them. Someday, this shit is going to change. Someone will someday be brave enough to expose them for what they are. Pity it couldn’t have happened sooner. The harm has been done.

They don’t listen, they do not think. If they were smart, they would have been kind. That was too much to ask for. Should have never expected them to listen. Only it is a pity they have been so ruthless.

I’ve tried to prove my sanity, much to my failure. No one cared. They didn’t listen, they didn’t read, and what is more; they could not care.

Conclusion

Wanted my life better. The harm has been done. At this point, it is far too late to make it right with me. They have caused me harm. The psychological torment I’ve endured, is beyond what is reasonable for anyone to have to endure. They disregard my feelings as being of no value, that will only get them so far. They treat me like I don’t matter, and of no account. Wonder if they think they can treat everyone in this world like that?

I am not one of you. You are all human. I am not human!

Photo Credit: Photo by Jackson Simmer on Unsplash

Written By: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

How To Spot People That Seem Good, And Are Really Toxic

In today’s world a person needs good survival skills. It is easy to get people that have toxic traits and think they are okay people. A lot of people today, are only self validated; and they all think they are great!

The trouble comes when they think they are great, and really very toxic people that aren’t good at all. Let’s examine a few ideas about this. I will try to illustrate the ideas with some kind of reasonable example you can follow.

Example 1:

A nice Christian woman goes to a national park, and she see’s many kinds of wildlife while she is in the park. She see’s bears, and birds of all kinds. A moose, and a bob cat. Then when leaving the park, she see’s a wolf. And she really likes the wolf, and she decides she wants one of her own.

So the woman goes out and acquires a wolf of her own. But she doesn’t like its behavior, she really wants it to act like a house cat. She isn’t happy with the wolf, because it doesn’t behave like a house cat. She has the wolf drugged against its will in an effort to make it live like a good house cat, because that is what she wants.

The wolf isn’t happy. The wolf hates living like a house cat. Doesn’t it seem immoral to drug a wolf against its will and try forcing it to live like a house cat? It is not in its nature to live like a house cat, it is a wolf, and wants to live like a wolf. It has something in its blood that being confined like a house cat goes against everything inside it.

Example 2:

Someone that has only had a cat their whole life, gets a dog. They think the dog is really bad, because it doesn’t behave like a house cat. They don’t know how to train it, they don’t know how to treat it right, and they hate the dog, because it doesn’t act like they want it to.

Maybe, the problem is not the dog? Maybe, the problem is the person that has the dog doesn’t know how to train, treat, or handle a dog; when what they should have is house cat.

You can not expect a dog to live like a house cat. That just isn’t going to work. So what you can do, is not expect the same behavior from the two. They really are not the same kinds of animals.

Be Reasonable

Can you see the reason in this? Does it make sense? The first example seems like something that is immoral, because the expectations of the person went against the very nature of the wolf, and it is not logical, reasonable, or rational behavior on the part of the woman who wanted to keep a wolf like a house cat.

The second example is of just pure ignorance. Some people do not think, and can not reason that the two do not behave alike. Sometimes people have no experience, and should chalk it up as a learning experience. But please, don’t expect your dogs to behave like house cats. They are more than warm sacks of shit, and should be treated as such.

This article is about how to spot toxic people. So now that we have covered a few examples of things that are toxic, let’s examine some other ways people need to be aware of.

Those who try to control, manipulate, or change those who have natures different than themselves, should never expect a person to conform to their expectations. Something I saw today online, really made me think. It said: “A man that really loves you will change his behavior for you.”

Thinking about this, made me angry. If a woman doesn’t like a mans behavior; she should never get involved with him in the first place. End of story, full stop!

People that are good for each other, are good for each other. If they are not good for you, are you sure you aren’t trying to do something unnatural like make a wolf live like a house cat?

It would be just as immoral and unreasonable to expect a wolf to live like a house cat. So why do people expect someone to be different from their nature? It seems illogical to expect someone to change their ways for someone that isn’t going to love them for who they are inside. They either love everything about them, or they will grow to despise the person for who they are.

There is no real way to make a house cat understand this. They are illiterate, and couldn’t think past cat nip, tv, and preening to make them understand. They lack the capacity to understand it.

Pity, they should have never been allowed to be in control. People that only have solution rooted in politics, religion, and sobriety, do not understand, and will never understand. They are toxic people, who are best avoided. Learn from my mistakes, be careful who you trust. They will drug you if you disagree with them, and their ways. They will wonder why the wolf doesn’t exist like a house cat, and doesn’t like the treatment. And they get really upset if you complain about it. Maybe they were immoral to have done what they did in the first place.

How To Prove Your Sanity

Proving My Sanity

After giving it a lot of thought, for a very long time; these are some lessons I have learned the hard way.

Really to be able to prove one’s sanity they must be able to define sanity.

Google says the definition of sanity is: “the ability to think and behave in a normal and rational manner” That is also the Oxford dictionaries definition of sanity.

So through thinking, and behaving in a rational manner, one can prove their own sanity. There are many things in today’s society that are accepted as normal, rational, and even encouraged.

Where the problem comes into play is this: When a person is subjected to situations that are not reasonable, rational, or logical, then they are forced to choose between irrational, or illogical choices.

Seems in my lifetime, this very life; I have time and time again been in situations that were not reasonable, or rational. Yet, I have taken the sanest possible path out of those situations.

A sane person in logical and reasonable situations that does the reasonable and logical course of action is by all means sane. However, let’s examine an important idea.

Suppose a sane person was subjected to irrational conditions, or situations that were unreasonable. Suppose the situation was designed to be impossible, just to set up a situation where the person could have doubt cast upon them.

Thereby once the doubt was created, they could pigeon hole the person as not being sane, thereby setting up situations to humiliate, dehumanize, and rob them of their dignity. Thus, through crafty measures, they continue the farce of the persons lack of sanity; when it was them that created the situation in the first place.

There are things the human race have withheld from me. There are also conditions the human race have created that have caused me great harm. Let’s examine a few of them.

Withholding love and affection.
Conditions equal to or worse than solitary confinement.
Gas Lighting.
Neglect, Indifference.
Outright abuse.

This effectively puts the whole human race in negative standing. They have time, and time again created situations that were impossible, irrational, and unreasonable.

And by what standards do they judge what is reasonable, and rational? Because if you looked the world we are living in today, it would seem the whole world has lost its mind.

Most people are on the brink of a nervous breakdown at any moment with the slightest drop of a pin. And that kind of conditions is not reasonable, or rational. To have to appease other people that are on the brink of a nervous breakdown, because they can not deal with the situation, is impossible situations.

Really these people that are in power are control freaks. They can not stand anyone that dares to dream, think, or reason on anything they themselves haven’t already thought of. They are not dreamers, or people that really want to inspire others. They believe that holding the status quo, regardless of what needs done is the way to go.

My belief is their problem is they are blind. They can not see the problem, because their own vision is not clear, or realistic. Life in this world is changing, and to be able to live in a sane and rational way; you have to be able to adapt to the changes that are taking place. One of them is being able to think bigger than a living turd.

Because it seems to me, what they really want, are warm sacks of shit. They want those that do what they are told, just like they are told, and never question the reasons why. If that is the standard by which they are going to hold people, they should make that clear from the start. Because creating double bind situations where you are damned if you do, and damned if you don’t is only proving to be manipulative weapons of warfare.

Seems, the human race will stop at nothing to do what they want. They are not reasonable, rational people. And they expect everyone to conform to their insane ways and customs, without regard for what others feel to also be right. Really, that is setting up impossible situations that are not rational.

So yes, a sane person is someone that in reasonable and rational situations does the reasonable and rational things. However, a person that does the best they can under irrational, illogical, and unreasonable situations is no less sane for it.

I would like to see anyone live my life, and do better than I have. After years of having proved myself, doing logical, reasonable things, no one has recognized my status. This seems very unfair of them, to have done that to me. Pity.

What is reasonable in today’s world? If people are subjugated to being nothing more than warm sacks of shit, then no one will come along and change the situation. And to be honest, life could be better for everyone for a long time. So what kind of world do you want to live in? You want rational, logical, and reasonable people? Stop creating situations that are insane.

Unless they stop creating insane situations, life will not get better. When they start being reasonable, and turn to being loving, kind humans, then it may be possible for life to change.

This is the first draft of this article.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Photo Credit: Photo by Gioele Fazzeri on Unsplash

Want To Change Your Life? Answer This: What Is Noble In Today’s Society?

There has to be a way. . .

Today’s modern world is something that has some problems. Really when one thinks about the world we are living in, it goes way beyond just having injustice in life.

To stand up against injustice is the right thing to do; however, the better thing to do is to fix the problems which are causing the real problems in the first place.

The current system in place has caused countless numbers of problems that could have been prevented. In its original form, the system in place may have been very useful; however, the variables have become tainted along the way. Really we have to restore the system back to a clean slate. There needs to be some correction made, to account for the way things have become unbalanced.

Really, it is a matter of balance. Too many variables have become unbalanced, and the system has nothing to restore correct values in the equation. Without the ability to “reset” the values, injustice will continue to be a problem.

When one considers what is noble, and how to go about living with yourself in true nobility; maybe, those who work for the good of others is of some use.

Many today are chasing the money, or women, or nice cars, and big houses. However, if one were to do what is truly noble, then those things would likely happen regardless of the situations.

The idea that I keep going back to in my thoughts is that if people were really being kind in their dealings with others, a lot of these problems could be avoided in whole.

All too often, people are hard pressed, stressed, and at the breaking point. Those conditions create situations that lead to harm, hurt, and pain. When those who have been effected by those things go forward, there is always some of the hurt that gets carried over into their future dealings.

With having so many people, I would say, there is a high percentage of people that are hurting and in pain. It seems, there is a large number of us in this world that are the walking wounded. Those who have been hurt, stung, or injured. Really with the number of people that have been hurt, it’s surprising that the world doesn’t have a lot more problems than it does.

Really, we have to find something noble to do about it. The current system, while it once worked; has taken a real downward spiral out of control, and out of balance.

Most people don’t have good solutions. Few today can think about it, and even fewer people really actually care. And this is the second point about where the problem is. Too many people today, they couldn’t be bothered. They don’t give a damn. Not unless it’s going to look cool to be a mob speaking out about the injustice. Then they are all in, even if they are doing injustice because of it.

So we have to be kind, and we have to care. Really, the problems wouldn’t be that difficult to solve, if people were willing to do the work to make it better. So that goes back to people that actually care, and give a damn. We all have a limited amount of time, and we only have the ability to care about so many things at any one given point of time. Really, there seems to a problem that people have accepted herd mentality as their moral compass.

And that, is where a problem is. Something has to be done to change the direction things are going, before everyone ends up hurting a lot more. We must seek peace, we must seek healing. Before it is too late, and the unthinkable happens.

Something has to change for the better, and in ways that are useful, and effective to make life better for everyone. The world can not afford to wait. Before it is too late, start with what you know, and really give it all some deep thought. You will have to think about it, for a long time before you are able to reach a good answer.

So start the discussion today, and give it thought. Talk about these things in calm reasonable ways that are not angry, hateful, or vengeful. You have to be reasonable, to change the world; it takes an awful lot of good sense.

It will take understanding beyond what humans can think of. Someone is going to have to come along that is truly brilliant. These problems need to be solved, and made better. Someone is going to have to do it. Why won’t it be you that does?

Conclusion

Think about doing something that is truly noble. Do what is good for everyone, and after long enough it will become the standard by which all things are measured. People have to start to care again, not just about the injustice; but the real causes of these problems in the first place. Be wise, do your own research, be aware, have a care. Do what is best for everyone.

Life has to get a lot better, before it is too late. Do what you can. Show some courage, and be strong. Life has to get a lot better for everyone. Think about doing what is noble, and everything else should just flow.

What Should We Value, Honor, and Respect As Beings In This World?

Where is the honor, respect, and kindness in this world?

This world has some problems. A lot of people have been de-valued, to the point most people can not get much respect these days.

Respect is defined as admiring someone for their abilities, qualities, or achievements. It seems, achievements without qualities isn’t worth much, if anything. So there has to be a careful balance of all the variables. Really someone with abilities that are beyond normal, with qualities that are above average, and achievements that stand out; that is someone to respect in this world.

Seems some of the variables have been tainted. Because most everyone sets out with the expectation of making a certain amount of money in their lifetimes. The standards that have been set says that everyone should try to make a million dollars to live off when they retire. And people set that goal, then act completely ruthless to reach their goals.

It seems like this standard has been carefully crafted, to make society perform in specific ways. And it is working very well. The problem is, most people don’t care about what is really best anymore; they allow their greed, or envy to dictate how they should behave.

Really, we have to get back to doing what is best for everyone. As long as people are stabbing each other in the back, society will continue to be a ruthless place to exist. Really these conditions don’t make a civilized culture.

One of the problems in my opinion is that of supply and demand. The supply of humans is very high, while the demand is very low. We need a way to work the variables out so that we don’t harm the supply of important ingredients, while reducing the supply of humans to a modest level.

Seems people don’t respect effort, skill, or talent these days. It might be because the supply is great, and the demand is low. Therefor the value goes down by a significant amount. Much that once had value, has been de-valued. It seems, our lives are nearly worthless trash these days. And that should never be the case. Not ever.

Most people are just existing, the majority of people are not really living. And they are content with just existing, like warm sacks of shit. Maybe that is important to them? Seems there has to be something that can be done to bring value and meaning back into our lives; to make life better for everyone!

Without value, and purpose; people will continue to just exist like warm sacks of shit. We want better than that. We want a lot better than that. So let’s work towards finding out what puts value, purpose, and meaning back into our lives. Really, we should be respecting people based off their abilities, qualities, and achievements. It seems the standards that have been set, much that once had value is no longer a commodity.

So what really has value in today’s world? Answer that, then work towards making life better for everyone so they can achieve those things.

Conclusion

Life has to have meaning, and purpose. We have to as a society value the lives of our fellow beings enough that we don’t show them dis-respect, and honor those who deserve to be honored.

We need to get back to having some values in life. Because society has lost its way in this maze of hundred dollar bills.

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Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Rare Birds – How The System Is Creating The Extinction Of Species In The Job Market

The Problem:

Life has some problems, some of them are serious. There has been a steady de-valuation of human life for some time. These problems are likely caused by supply and demand, or the lack thereof. Seems the supply of humans is high, and the demand is low. Thus, they have lost some of their value; much to their harm.

Seems the book “Snow Crash” by Neil Stephenson is starting to ring true today; the world has been reduced to: Movies, Music, Micro-code, and High Speed Pizza Delivery. That doesn’t leave much room for anything else in life to grow.

The obvious choices we once had for respecting people for skill, or talent have fallen far from people’s minds. Today, they care nothing about effort, skill, or talent. With that in mind, here are some species that are going to go extinct.

Photographers
Graphic Artists
Authors
Web Designers
Poets
Desktop Publishing

Just as forty years ago, printing was a booming business, today you would be hard pressed to find someone with a printing press. It seems the days of yesterday have vanished right before our eyes.

There needs to be some value, even if artificial to the creative trades that support many thousands of people today. Seems, there has been little value placed on really living. Most today are content with just existing, and have been existing like zombie cat shit.

That is no way to live. Some people say, “Be content just existing.” This is really a very harmful way to think. If one were to be content with just existing in any fashion available, life would be reduced to a prison cell; where people sit on a toilet in front of a big screen television, while eating and shitting simultaneously. We don’t want that kind of uniformity.

Life has to get better, and right quick. Something has to be done to make life better for everyone. There has to be some value placed on those in the creative arts, because that is where the future is at. Otherwise, employment will be reduced to nothing more than adult day care where they pay you to attend.

There has to be value in what we do, most people don’t understand the level of effort it takes to be really good at something. Most people are content with just so-so work, and content with entertainment that is just average.

The problems with the devaluation of life can not be tolerated, something has to be done to bring meaning, and value back into our lives. There are so many broken people in this world, that it’s going to take a miracle to heal them.

Really something has to change for the better. It has been rough going a long time. Most people today; they are all hurting. Who will help fix their pain, and make life better?

Really, people have to start being kind again. It has been far too long since people really cared about others. It is time for something to happen that changes all this. We have to start to see the value the creative arts have in our lives.

You don’t want to be content with just existing, because just existing with what ever conditions they will give you, wouldn’t make life better. Really we have to feel like we have some value in life. Our lives matter, and should be respected. Hence, something has to be done to make life better.

Society has lost its way in this world, people are not functional, and have not been having any fun. Really, we have to start having some fun with it. People are so polarized, it is starting to harm everyone that is living. Who can survive?

We have to be more than warm sacks of shit. However, it seems that is what they are trying to reduce us into being. If nothing else, the things that set us apart, are our talent, skill, and effort we put forth. Machines will never really have those things. Good thing too!

Do what you can, while you can do such. Life has to change, for the better. You know?

Photo Credit: Photo by Matthew Henry on Unsplash

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

LifeStyle On Edge – Thoughts On A Pretty Good Day

On being like a tree

After a pretty good day, with nothing worse than a mild headache, it seems there are days that this living death is more bearable. Progress was made, and I’ve been thinking today about potential.

Well thinking about potential, and how to define success. Seems there are ways we forget what really matters. To be happy, sometimes we get close, so very close; yet it seems just not close enough.

The difference between genius and insanity is success.
Albert Einstein

How one defines success can be subjective. What is one persons success is someone else’s nightmare. Might depend upon what movies you watch. You know?

Been thinking about my definitions of what it means to me. I was out back smoking a cigarette, when an idea struck me. It didn’t hurt, as a matter of a fact, I laughed about it. The idea was this: working a nine to five job; is basically daycare where they pay you to be there.

In a world of alternative facts, it helps sometimes to have something concrete to measure by. I wonder what people in life really think? Seems so many today are close to success, they are close to being happy, close to being alive; yet, the distance is overwhelming to them.

How can you be so close, yet feel so unhappy? Seems the stuff that makes us happy, is elusive sometimes. And you think, someday; I’m going to catch that feeling.

Sometimes, my days are more productive than a dozen monks contemplating their navels. Other times, my days don’t get me very far. It seems, this lifestyle is on the edge of being close to what I want, yet; not close enough. There is no glass ceiling; however, there are some hard limits to what I can do.

Trying to work with what I have. Sometimes, I think about what I could do, or should be doing. I’m better off sometimes, with what I am doing. There is a sense of accomplishment from what I do. And the feeling that happiness is near, not far off. So close.

If you don’t count what you could have, or what you need; then where you are could be better than a lot of other options. I’ve given some thought to those who are happiest, and it seems those who need the least; while having all of their needs met, would be the best off.

I have some needs, not a lot. I’ve thought about how to make do with less. There are some parts of modern life, it’s not possible to live without. You shouldn’t even try.

Comforts

When a person has some comfort, and it suffices; then what more could one really need?

The problem is when comfort is lacking, and nothing will satisfy. The person that is happiest, is the ones that are the most content. But too much comfort is a burden. So there has to be balance.

Thus, how does one define success?

Those that are the most content, with the necessary comforts, without having burdens that are difficult.
-ctopher

Then again, one persons success would be another persons living hell. So there is difference of what works for each person. The secret is to find your spot without getting yourself into trouble.

Use good judgement. To each their own. Do not oppress your fellow men. Make life good for yourself while doing no harm to others of your kind.

Hence, I’ve learned something new. Or at least; explored a way to think about it. Having the philosophy to reason on, and the ideas lined up that make the most sense; that is the battle.

Seems, I could be happy; a lot has to change, somethings need to stay the same. There is no pleasing everyone all the time. Variety is important, and if you neglect it; you will be less happy.

This way of looking at it, makes sense to me. What do you think? Can you see the reason in the rhyme? But if you take a good look at my life, would you say: “He is successful?”

Maybe this life is training for us? You have to make good use of everything! Take the good training you get and put it to work for you, and the bad training you get; don’t do that junk.

Training twice as hard as real life would ever be.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Photo Credit: Photo by Andrew Liu on Unsplash

This article was inspired by the article found here: Proximity Be sure to watch the video, it is really something!

Philosophical Empowerment

Make Yourself Better!

Through reason, one can improve their life. You have to understand, without being able to reason, nothing else is of value. Or has very little value for very short periods of time. The mess society finds itself in today; what a mess!

phi·los·o·phy /fəˈläsəfē/ noun the study of the fundamental nature of knowledge, reality, and existence, especially when considered as an academic discipline.
-Google

You don’t have to be a rocket scientist to figure it out, the world it seems is however, really dumber than rocks. Pity! You would think, people would have some values in life. Seems what they value doesn’t hold much real meaning.

You have to wonder, if things that have the most meaning would have the most value? If so, does it really have value; or just the superficial belief that something has value? I’ve seen people try to pull the wool over our eyes before. So what gives?

I’m bored, hence the need to do some writing; despite the fact, no one is reading my work. Wish it were going better, I needed some encouragement to keep this insane pace going. Seems, no one will give a damn. How does a person change their life? How do you take something broken, and make it right? At what point does it not make it worthy of doing? How much is enough?

Seems a little broken can be mended, or healed. But breaking your dishes might mean you have to get new dishes. What if your heart is broken? Maybe you will find someone that will make it better, maybe with time, it will heal somewhat.

Be Wise, Live Smart!

There are some things that are difficult to heal from. You want to avoid those things as much as possible. Because being really broken is not going to be fun, pleasant, or fulfilling. It’s better to get what enjoyment you can from life without doing real damage to yourself.

That said, there are some things you want to avoid at all costs. Anything that makes it difficult to think now, or in the future may not be advantageous to your long term interests.

You want to take care of your long term interests, so that they may reward you someday in the future. That would be showing some sign of wisdom. You want to be wise, right?

Take care of yourself. Suffering because you didn’t isn’t smart. You want better than that, if you can possibly avoid it; do such at all costs.

Better to think a little more than they want you to, then not think at all. You know? Sometimes, people lead you down the wrong rabbit hole, because they are ruthless cruel. Beware! Have some care. Know the difference, so you can live to tell the tale.

Use your mind, and empower yourself beyond what most of the herd is doing. You have to get smart, like right quick; before its too late!

In short; don’t use drugs in this life, or this world. It’s not worth the hassle. If they screw your mind up, the cost if far too high, and recovery is almost impossible. You got stuff to do, and a lot more to live for than what comes with that ball of wax.

Conclusion

Empower yourself through philosophical reasoning. The benefits in the long run, will be worth more than gold. And you can thank me for the advice, because you will be a lot happier in the long run too!

Hope this clears up some of the issues in your head. At least on these subjects. There is a lot to cover, read my whole blog to learn more. You will be happy you did!

Photo Credit: Photo by Yasuo Takeuchi on Unsplash

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

A Brief Guide On How To Write

The Basics In A Nutshell

In simple terms, writing is thinking for your audience. They are going to have to think every word you write. Therefore, your authors voice has to be easy and gentile enough that the reader can understand it.

People in general, they don’t like to have to think too much. So if your writing can be a guide to helping them think, so much the better. However, your authors voice has to be enjoyable to endure thinking what you say.

In the simple terms, you have to make a nice thoughts connected with enough thoughts that the reader can picture, and sense the environment you want them to experience.

So write nice, and make the reader enjoy thinking what you write. If you can write clearly, then the reader will enjoy thinking what you wrote.

Conclusion

In simple terms, that is the idea in a nutshell. So be kind, write in such a way people will enjoy thinking what you wrote.

Written By: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Photo Credit: Photo by Matias North on Unsplash

In The Flux – My Digital Chaos

Rise

It has been a few days since I wrote, and I’ve just finished a project that I want to talk about with you. My new video is out on YouTube now, and my feelings are it turned out pretty darn good. It started with an idea, about the meaning of being lost, and finding one’s self again.

It finishes with the idea that life is short, and we have to take care of ourselves, and others. Really there are some things I wish to have known much sooner. Yet, life is what it is. We all learn sooner or later, some of us don’t learn until it’s almost too late.

Don’t make the mistakes I did, life is too short. Make good use of your time, make good use of your life. You want to be a lot better off than I am at my age. Being forty-six, and having seen some rough decades of life, I can tell you; be wise.

Here is the video embedded from YouTube:

In The Flux – My Digital Chaos

https://youtu.be/SK06p5yyQWc

In The Flux – My Digital Chaos

This video turned out fairly well. It is a short project, and shouldn’t be too painful to watch. You might have to deal with my making music; however, I’m sure you can endure the three minutes of video.

Not much going on, life is. Things are. Trying to deal with that. Maybe tomorrow will be better than today was? That would be very good indeed! Not sure what project will be waiting for me tomorrow.

Maybe I will get to sleep in? That would be nice. See my other project, My Day to see my days in photos. You can view the list view and see the collection of the days I have completed.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Photo Credit: Photo by Casey Horner on Unsplash

8 Steps to Beautify Your Heart, Mind, and Soul To Be Happier

Start Today!!

Life is not always pretty, and to keep our minds in good condition, sometimes it is necessary to do some maintenance. Recently I was thinking about what qualities I want to have and seek in others.

Thus, this article was born from the thoughts of how to beautify my mind. They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder, however sometimes, life makes a mess. So it is important to clean the messes up; sometimes after yourself, sometimes after others.

I went searching for what others had written, I found this article: Traits of a beautiful mind, by JC Wandemberg Ph.D., he has a mind, and the ability to reason, however the article’s focus is on low level subjects. Really his article would be the foundation of this article.

My goal is to provide something a bit more high level, an overview of some of the subjects that matter to me. Really having a beautiful mind is about how you adapt, and grow. There is a lot more than that to it, what you put into your mind matters, and having a beautiful mind is about cleaning up the mess after yourself and others.

There are some subjects that put beauty back into life, some of them are not only necessary, but essential.

Music

Music is an important part of life. Really the music one has in their life, makes all the difference in the world. You need music that makes you feel something, that makes you believe, and brings hope.

Music adds to the beauty of life. It can bring a lot of enjoyment to living, and makes life more interesting. Having a good selection of music matters, and being able to pick what you want to listen to, when you want it, is important.

Art

Having art in your life is important. There are many branches of art that you can experience, and sometimes you have to create your own. Being creative is a sign of intelligence. Both having art in your life, and creating your own art matters a lot.

Art gives you perspective, and new ideas. It helps to show something someone else believes is beautiful. And really having a beautiful mind is about seeing the beauty in life.

Philosophy

Having some philosophy in your life matters. It helps set standards, and a base for your future self. It can give you a foundation that makes life worth living. When you live by a philosophy that makes your life better, then you have something solid to exist upon.

Books

When you have a selection to pick from, and have content that makes your life feel hopeful, and gives you peace of mind, there is nothing like that. Really reading books is a window into the experience of others, both what they find beautiful and what they find to be a problem in life. Reading books opens your mind to new ways of thinking, and shows you a path of thinking that will add enjoyment to your life.

Theater

The theater is a place where magic happens, regardless of if you like watching the TV, or actually going to see a live performance, these experiences make life better, as they give you something that will open your eyes to life.

There is a feeling about seeing a live performance that makes you feel something, and the good ones always give you something to think about.

Love

Without love, life isn’t worth much. Having some love in your life is going to make a huge difference in your life. Today, all too often people say they love someone, even when they don’t actually feel anything. That is a problem. To really feel love, that makes you have a positive emotion from the experience matters an awful lot.

Having some real, true love will make your life worthy of living. When you feel loved, and can show love to others, this is simply not replaceable. There is nothing like that. It will improve your life, make life worth living, and add enjoyment to your life.

Kindness

Being kind, even when others don’t know how to be such; this is really important. They say, you reap what you sow. My belief is that is true, thus; if you are kind, you will receive kindness in return. Being kind is a wise choice, because you will see the benefits from doing such in the ways others treat you.

Don’t fail to be kind to others, and yourself. This will add to the beauty of your life, make your life better, and make others lives more beautiful. This is a win/win situation. Don’t neglect being kind to others. You will thank yourself for doing such.

Patience

Having patience in times that are tough, it will make your life better, because not everything happens right away. You have to be patient, with yourself, and others. Having the right frame of mind to be patient matters, because when you have patience, you can find the ability to get into the zone, and have those magic moments. If you are not patient, then it robs you of your happiness, and the moments you could be enjoying life.

Conclusion

What you put into your mind matters, sometimes you have to take the trash out, and always plant gardens in your heart, mind, and soul. It is easier to plant gardens and take the weeds out, then to allow your life to decay into wretchedness. Maintain your beautiful mind, and reap the rewards of having a life worthy of living.

Life is not always pretty, and you have to put some beauty back into life. Because if people only take, then there will be a shortage someday, you have to be willing to put something back into the life we have.

Practice making life great. If you want today to be better than yesterday, you have to take action to making life better. Do what you can, there is the power to change your life, for the better. If you believe it is possible, then you can do it.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Photo Credit: Photo by Lesly Juarez on Unsplash

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From A Dark Place

Towards The Light

Mercury is out of retrograde. Thank goodness, that is over now. Maybe life will get moving in the right direction now? Maybe! I am bored right now, thus writing for the enjoyment of writing, without regard to real purpose or having something real important to say.

It does seem, to me, even if I had something important to say; no one would listen. They seem to have no way to value my effort, as though it doesn’t mean much of anything to them.

Bored with the status of my life, bored with the way this life has been treating me; life has been kicking my dog, going to have to do something about that damn cat!

Not much going on. I feel better now, mercury is out of retrograde, and it was a rough few weeks with that one. Maybe other people will lighten up now, and life will start to be better again? One can hope!

I’ve been working on a few projects, some of them are coming alone rather well. My project for my day in photos; it is done, been posting everyday to the site. If you want to check it out: My Day.

My other projects are going well. Finished some tough javascript problems this morning, and have solved most all of them with a very clever working solution. I’m happy about that. My site, Misfit.Ctopher.Me is coming along very well, it’s not really getting any traffic, but its been over a year in development. I do have a few other projects with that site, things I would like to do with it.

My other project, Lord knows; it needs a lot of help. It is a good idea, but it will require a lot of development to reach the status I’m looking for. Seems my projects have all met their maker. Wish they could meet you too!

I’m bored. Not much going on. Been isolated a lot, I mean; an awful lot the last month has been rough going. I am productive, but my social life is not looking all that good. I’m not really sure how to fix the damn problem. You would think, someone would have cared by now? Seems it’s a pity that life is like it is. It could have been really good. You know?

Life has to change, for the better. It has been rough going, the last twenty years; they have all been rough. It has made me tough, it might have also made me mean, but that is subjective.

Not much going on, I cooked a meal tonight. Roast beef melt with cheese, horseradish, and onion. It was good, I ate it before I could photograph it, I guess that I wasn’t thinking when I sat down to eat it, because I forgot to take a photo. These digital lifestyles can get difficult to keep up with, after a while, I guess you get into the habit.

I had other things on my mind, and not going to elaborate on that.

Bored! Life is, Things are. Trying to find some way to deal with that concept. It is easy to deal with, if you have the right frame of mind. Sometimes, it helps to be accepting of the situation, that things are the way that they are, and deal with it.

Still, I have some parts of my life, I would really like to see change for the better. I’m not sure, it seems my dreams have become stale, and I’m working on finding some new dreams. I’ve been avoiding making music for a few months now, I would like to get back into the groove; but it seems a ways off.

I have mostly been doing heavy duty programming the last month, with a few projects completed, I’m even learning javascript. That is something I have put off, like twenty years. I have found that I’m getting the hang of it these days. Thank goodness for Google.

The dogs are happy, if life wasn’t kicking them. Going to have to do something about that cat! Bring your dog, he can play the wolf for the evening. We have two spoiled doggies, that could use some time with another doggie.

Bored. I’ve been putting off writing for a month now, mostly because; no one reads, regardless of how much effort I put into it, or how well I’m writing, it seems no one cares anymore.

I had hoped that my writing would have proved my sanity, somehow, that seems impossible. They don’t give a damn about my effort. Pity, I wanted my life better, and I wanted it a long time ago.

I’ve lost weight, I am now down to about 167, which I am very happy about. Its starting to feel good to be thin again. It has been twenty years since I was down to this weight. I’m glad it has started coming off. It is a big relief to be losing weight.

My hair is long these days, and I am happier than I have been in fifteen years. That is doing really very well, from where I’ve been, I can say that I’ve come an awful long ways from where I was.

This photo was from a few weeks ago. My hair has gotten long, much longer than it has ever been. That is for sure. I keep the sides short, and the back short too. It is almost 12″ on top. I think its a nice look. Now, if I could only get a job, I need a job man.

That is about the summary. Life, in a nutshell.

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Photo Credit: Photo by Intricate Explorer on Unsplash

Why Quality Food Matters and Makes Life Enjoyable

You Get Hungry Sometimes. . .

Having something to eat is a good thing. Having really good food is important; as it adds to the quality of life that you can live. When the food is just bland, dull, and frozen; it isn’t as good as having a fresh cooked meal that tastes delicious.

You can improve the quality of life you have by eating good food. Really if you are only getting your food from a drive-thru, you are missing out on some real living.

The flavor of food matters, the ingredients have be fresh, and well prepared. Because it has to stir your taste buds into believing that eating is worthy of doing. When the food isn’t as good as it should be, your taste buds see no reason to eat that junk.

Really good food adds a lot of enjoyment to living, and having a quality lifestyle. In today’s world, having some lifestyle makes all the difference in the world. Just existing as a boujee, isn’t really living well. The quality of food you can get, shouldn’t have to be expensive to eat well. You would think, in today’s modern world; food would be the last of our problems.

Seems, the world doesn’t want people to live well. Our shopping options are limited, and without having access to the best, we get complacent and settle for what we can get our hands on. Really we should be eating better than this, there is no excuse for the way things are.

Wake Up!

You want the food to stir your desire to live, you want the food you eat to be enjoyable. Eating is something everyone has to do at least once a day, and the process should be something that you enjoy doing.

Frozen food, it just doesn’t have the same appeal that a home cooked meal has with it. It isn’t as enjoyable to eat something that was frozen, heated up, and served like a dish that was cold. It doesn’t stir your senses. It doesn’t wake your taste buds up from a long slumber.

We want to eat food that tastes really good. We want to eat something delicious. For that to happen, someone is going to have to cook. I’m not sure how we can really eat better, but I know for a fact, it is possible. It could happen, and I don’t believe that is being grandiose about wanting better food to eat. It doesn’t have to be expensive, it just has to taste really good.

Conclusion

Everyone should be able to have a good quality of life, and what you eat matters, it adds a lot of enjoyment to your life. It also adds some culture, and a dash of variety to your life. Really, you eat the same stuff too long, pretty soon it all tastes so darn bland and dull. There has to be some variety in what we eat, and the enjoyment that we get from it.

At least there is coffee. Coffee always works.

Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Photo Credit: Photo by Louis Hansel @shotsoflouis on Unsplash

Posse Bonus Post, Something Happy?

This is your posse bonus post this month. This photo of the dolphins was just too much to pass up, I had to post it. It is just so darn cool. Wish that I could get some dolphin time, alas life is.

There is some good to be had, if you look for it; sometimes, you have to really do some searching to find it. It is out there, like a formula hiding in plain sight. Some fractals are easier than others.

It has been snowing the last twenty-four hours. Nothing major, just some snow flurries. It has been a nice change, this winter is being kind thus far. New year, seems like the life we want is playing hide-and-seek from us. Pity!

Music is keeping me company, and running at more than 50%, I’ve been busy working on my site: Misfit.Ctopher.Me. It now has a feature to “Like” the photos in the main page, and keeps count of how many likes each post gets. It wasn’t too difficult, took me two days of effort to make it happen. I’m glad it worked out, I think its pretty cool, and neat stuff.

Not much going on; it seems, no matter how much effort I put forth, it is all going into a huge vacuum. Where is everyone at? They must be watching TV, or playing video games. I hope they are out having fun, that would be good. Life is meant to be lived; you should live it to the max!

Seems, I’ve been in a better mood the last few days; times are tough, life is rough. Wish it were going to get a lot better, right quick too! Thank God there is music; I would be so lost, banging on trash cans; trying to make music.

The human race, seems to be going in circles. No one can make their minds up about much of anything. Pity! Maybe it will get better for everyone one of these days, real soon!

Haven’t heard from anyone in months. It is a lot of isolation. More than my fair share; you want some? If I could bottle and sell isolation to people for a profit, wow; that would be something! I have plenty of it; if you want some, write me!

If only my isolation felt as good as this photo looks, I could use some of that, maybe just dangling my feet off the cliff looks good to me. How mighty the truth can be! Nature doesn’t lie.

I made a video, you should check it out; I think it is really very good. It is on YouTube, and here is the embedded version, if you want to watch it now!

https://youtu.be/oEB4Jn4vMwc

This was my latest project, which I spent an afternoon working on, and a few cups of coffee to complete. I think, it turned out really very well. Some people, think my voice isn’t very good; like to see them smoke two packs a day and still have a voice.

Trying to find meaning; seems this world is made of poison, trying not to let the haters make me meaner than I already am. Life needed to change, and for the better. Such is life.

Have to let this make me better, working towards some goals. I would like to see some results from my effort, yet; everyone is so darn busy these days, seems they don’t have time for me.

Read all the great posts on my blog, some of my writing has gotten a lot better, I feel my progress is very likely, REMARKABLE. If you saw my writing a few years ago, compared to my current work; I think it has come a long ways in the last month.

Have a nice day!! Thanks for reading!!

Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

What Is Advantageous?

Not All Things Are Advantageous

What is advantageous in this world? After giving it some level of thought, there are some points I can make about this subject.

The most advantageous options are ones that don’t have a disadvantage.

Seems everyone has some dis-advantage in life, but how we deal with them determine how much of a dis-advantage it really is. What may stop one person in their tracks is nothing more than a mild inconvenience to others. So the conditioning that people have and how their minds work may determine how we handle problems.

There are things that have positive effects, with no down side. Drinking a cup of coffee when you wake up has the advantage of helping you wake up. However, drinking ten cups of coffee before trying to go to sleep has a real downside.

So you have to be smart enough to understand cause and effect, and knowing when, what, where, and how.

I was standing the shower thinking about this, and some song by Janes Addiction came to mind. “What is advantageous?” Some things look good, some things feel good, some things are painful. What advantage is there in life? Seems we should be able to make use of most things in life. Turns water to coldest possible setting, that will wake you up.

Laying on the sofa giving it further thought, what really is advantageous in life? It seems some things are good for us, some things aren’t so good for us. Having a society that is sober and drug free, has some advantage. If everyone was drunk or drugged out of their minds, society wouldn’t function very well.

At the same time, just as people think smoking cigarettes is a major disadvantage, as they feel getting sick and dying isn’t an advantage; it seems at some point in the lives of everyone living; they all eventually get sick and die.

So what is advantageous? That which never puts you at a dis-advantage. Then, how does anyone make it through life? Seems everyone at some point is faced with something that challenges them to grow, to learn, and to adapt.

Anything that puts you at a long term dis-advantage would be likely a very bad thing. Some people aren’t given choices in the matter, which is because life can be very unfair. So it is advantageous to do things that improve your life.

I think something that is advantageous would be something that would have good results if anyone were to do so well. There are some things that some people do better than others, so knowing your abilities helps a lot. Not everyone is going to benefit from jumping out of an airplane at twenty thousand feet. Some may find it is very beneficial; some people may find it a career limiting maneuver. To each their own, do everything within your abilities.

Doing what is best, requires that a person have the ability to reason and use logic to understand the full effects of their actions; long before they set out to make something happen.

What advantage is there in being poor? Seems in the long run, its usually a dis-advantage. Yet, some people have come from poverty to rise in life, and do very well for themselves. They learned that they must work for what they want, and have standards.

So poverty in itself isn’t really anything more than a setback. While, being totally stupid; is a major disadvantage. It’s pretty tough to get smarter when you’re as dumb as a rock.

There might be an upside to it; but only as long as you believe that ignorance is bliss.

Do what is advantageous for everyone in the long run, and society will benefit for a long time. You have to have understanding about cause and effect; and the long term goals that need to be accomplished. Anything that has long term dis-advantages would be something to avoid at all costs.

Be wise, feed your head; just make sure it’s not poison.

Sometimes in life, it seems you are screwed no matter what course of action you take, go left; you are screwed. Go right; you are screwed. You are not able to go back; the only thing you can do is go strait. Be brave; have courage. Live so well, no one will ever say you didn’t try.

At some point; everyone will find some problem in life, how you deal with it; that is what matters. Some people train their whole lives for one moment. Do what you can to make life better for everyone.

Photo Credit: Photo by Jocelyn Morales on Unsplash

Written By Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit!

Thoughts About Value, Meaning, and Being Of Worth To Others

Finding Real Reasons To Live

What is value today in the minds of most people? It seems they respect money, power, and the illusions of grander. What could they find about someone like me to value? It certainly wouldn’t be my status, it wouldn’t be the money I have in the bank.

There are not many friends in my life, even fewer that know me. Seems I have existed as a ghost in this world for some twenty years, living like some misfit that doesn’t know better. Yet, you would be hard pressed to understand my point of view, such things only happen after you have fallen from grace; and learned some tough lessons the difficult way.

Seems there was nothing to protect me from my fall. In some ways, I had it all some twenty years ago; yet nothing I had was enough to protect me from the fall I have taken. So what does one do when there seems to be nothing of this world that can prevent what you have from being taken from you? Seems awful unfair if you ask me.

If you have known tough times, you might find some value in what I have had to say in my writing. I’m not sure how many would understand my point of view, seems the world today; most people don’t have many first world problems to really deal with.

Of what I have had to endure; they have denied me my honor, my dignity, and taken my self respect. Seems the basic functions of my life have been under attack for more than twenty years. Sometimes, I have reason to believe they did it all to hurt me. That may be true; that they are really so ruthless that they only wanted to hurt me.

Living my life will open your eyes, it would be enough to make you loose faith in humanity in whole. Seems the way this has been, there is nothing they could ever do to make it up to me. I have to wonder after having been treated like I have been, if they human race has any value? Maybe some value; but for people that claim to know their worth and treat me like I have none, isn’t very respectful.

If you know your value; and you treat other people as though they have none, maybe your pride is in the way of being a respectable being. Really what kind of value could you have to be able to treat others as though they have none? Seems people have lost their kindness in ways that leave the human race wanting of reason.

The world is a mess, and these days the problems aren’t getting better. Many today have become cruel, or living in total despair; of what kind of life have we created in this world that these problems are permitted to continue like this?

Life has to get a lot better. You may agree with me about that. If you are not in agreement with that idea, how can you live with yourself in this world and still be a respectable person? Are you blind to the problem? Wake up!

Wake Up!

Really value only comes from the whole having value, when there are those that are treated like they don’t really matter; that takes away from the value of the whole. For the whole to be the most valuable, everyone has to be treated like they matter, respected, and have their dignity intact.

So many today have allowed their lives to be as Charles Bukowski said, “Clubbed into dank submission.” Most people are not really more than warm sacks of shit. Pity, because life is meant to be lived, and too many today want to take even that away from us. I’m not sure what kind of life they want to live, seems to me; it’s not more than a living death.

Do what makes you feel alive. Value is more than meets the eye, somehow we have to get through to them, reach their hearts and minds; to make them believe that not everyone is going to tolerate being treated like a warm sack of shit.

If you know your value, and you treat anyone as though they have less value than you have; what does that say about you? Humans should remember, that they are all living clay, and not be superior to those that are their own kind, even more so they should respect those who are above them.

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

A Life I Used To Have –This Cage Holds Me Tight

My life used to be very different. In terms of a life that resembles my life previously, this life is nothing close to what I used to have. The life I used to have is a distant memory of what I have now. This cage holds me tight in its grip.

When I was growing up, I used to do stuff. I was way more active in my life, both physically, and socially. I grew up riding bicycles doing freestyle and BMX riding.

There were times people were afraid of seeing me ride my bike, what was normal for me, was all too much for them; they objected to riding with both feet on the handle bars while coasting down the street without a helmet or knee pads.

I had a motorcycle that I rode and was pretty good at it. I grew up knowing how to downhill snow ski, and made use of every chance I could get to hit the slopes. I learned to ski at double black diamond levels, and got quite a thrill from skiing like a wild man.

I also took up indoor rock climbing, and found it to be the real challenge both physically, and psychologically. Because to really climb well, it takes a lot of psychological skill to climb and keep your wits about you. Most people would think what I was doing was impossible. It wasn’t, there are people that climb way above me.

I used to go dancing, and was quite good at it. I took to swing dancing, because I thought the music was good, and it was fun to dance with pretty chicks at the Derby. Often several nights a week, I could be found dancing east cost swing, with some good food.

My skills were better back then, my ability to do things that took strength, endurance, and talent that are all required to be able to stay alive. I took up rollerblading, and was very agile on my feet. Really there wasn’t much that didn’t have wheels that I didn’t do, or try.

This all changed twenty years ago. My life took some awful wrong turn that I had no control of. It wasn’t that I did something stupid, nor was it that I got hurt. Well, I did get hurt really, really bad; but it wasn’t anything I had control over.

They said it was a chemical imbalance in my mind, and that I wasn’t to be considered a sane man any longer. Something somewhere had screwed my life up really bad. My life that I knew and loved was gone, in whole; the life I used to have has completely been taken from me. The life I have today; it is nothing compared to the living I was doing twenty years ago. What is more, this life I have now, it’s not really living; it is closer to a living death.

It feels so damn unfair that my life was taken from me. There were things that I enjoyed doing a great deal; none of which I have been able to do or take part of in twenty years. I long for the days I was physically challenging myself to push my limits, to go fast on wheels, and enjoy the rush of adrenaline in my body that made me feel alive.

This existence, it’s not living; it’s a living death. There is no rush from what I can do these days. I’ve tried to get the same feeling from other things that I used to know and enjoy. Nothing compares to what I used to have. There simply isn’t anything I could do today to give me the same feeling. I have no friends, no job, no girlfriend, and it doesn’t look like that situation will ever change in this life.

My life today isn’t fun, it isn’t even interesting. I am confined to my house, only leaving for coffee, or a trip to the store. My life isn’t very enjoyable, because the things that I used to find enjoyable, and challenging; are not options any longer.

It seems ruthless cruel that I have been forced to live like zombie cat shit, being drugged out of my mind to enjoy a living death. I think that they last thing I would ever say is that I have enjoyed this life the last twenty years.

Sure there are other things to get enjoyment from, I still do what I can; but the enjoyments I used to have were far better than what I can do today. It is difficult to get a real thrill from coding html, not that it doesn’t have some rewards, but my family treats my accomplishments these days like they are worthless trash. I would like to see them do what I’ve done the last five years. Yeah, that would be fun.

I’m very good at what I do, its the only way I can get a thrill. Still, I find that I long for the days I was challenging myself physically. My life today while peaceful, is lacking anything that produces the same feelings that being physically skilled and pushing the limits of what I can do. Somehow, a dog walk just doesn’t have the same rush that going thirty miles an hour on rollerblades has.

I long for the times my life was better. I keep saying, “Life has to get better.” However, it seems I’ve come to terms with the fact, in this body; life isn’t going to get better. Pity, this life is a living death. I wanted better. Just a piece of advice, take care of your teeth, they rot out fast once they start to go. Wish I had been better about what I could have done about it; but it is far too late now.

However, their cry’s of my insanity; what I have to say about that is this; they live like zombie house cats. I want to live my life; and better than most ever dream. Most people in this world don’t really live; they just exist. Pity. They will never know what really living is like.

This cage I have now, someday its going to be replaced. Life has to get a lot better, and right quick.

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Do Something Great

Lord knows, I’m trying. Seems it takes gigantic effort in life to really do something great. You have to work your butt off. Even then, you may feel like, no one will notice. How can anyone do something great? I would like to explore the idea.

Some say, “Some day, I’m going to change the world.” Some say, “Maybe tomorrow.” How does a person make sense of it? Seems like, everyone has their hands in their pockets, waiting for life to change.

How does anything really get done these days? Seems progress is so slow, that its on a slow boat from somewhere far, far, far away. Maybe a slow boat from Mars? Yeah, that far away. Does anyone want to make life really better? Because it seems many today; maybe almost everyone; they all have empty pockets.

Life has stretched the human race to new shapes. Some make objections, and want to go back to living in the oceans. Some never made out of being single cell protoplasm, and emotional ameba.

Why am I writing this? Because there is something I want to know. Sometimes writing to find the answers is the only solution. Since there is no one to talk with, I have to write to think as though I was speaking with someone.

I wonder, if I am happy. Maybe being happy is something we have the wrong ideas about. If we knew how gifted life is, then maybe we would have something to be happy about. Seems it gets lost in the flux and chaos. What is happiness? What does it taste like? What smell does happiness come with? Seems like success would have a very special feeling about being alive.

And maybe, all we have is how we feel about being alive. Sometimes its joy, sometimes its peace, sometimes it bites so damn hard you still have tooth marks on your butt weeks later.

I’m looking for something special. A feeling that wouldn’t be possible otherwise. But for that to happen, I would have to change the world in some big ways. Yeah; I want to do something great!

Seems I’ve been stuck in the way life is, with this feeling of being degraded for so long; I’ve lost sense of what it feels like to be happy. Sure, its important to be humble. However, when a persons dignity has been taken from them, then trying to fix that feels impossible.

Maybe the rewards would have to be pretty special. Having peace of mind about something that has caused you doubt your whole life. That would be something. That would be worth having. Seems there are not many good answers in the world these days.

Needed some good answers for years. Seems the reply is always like the wind on a night with a new moon. It just leaves me confused and perplexed. Sometimes, it leaves me cold.

Maybe something will change? Seems we have to be willing to work for change in life. Most things don’t occur on their own. A cheeseburger doesn’t spontaneously appear when you are hungry. Life isn’t like a cheeseburger. We have to work with what we have.

If you have a cow, you might get a cheeseburger someday. But what if you had a purple cow? Would you still want the cheeseburger, even if it came from a purple cow? Maybe the best option is to sell tickets to people to look at a purple cow, and have enough funds to buy a cheeseburger someone else made. If I had a purple cow, I would keep it and sell people a chance to see it. A live purple cow is better than a hamburger from a purple cow.

Unless the supply of purple cows is so great, everyone can have one. But that would defeat the purpose of having a purple cow. Right?

So how can we do something great without a purple cow? They are in short supply. This is something I have wracked my mind with for years on end. Still, the goal is to do something great. The problem is not the purple cow. What is the problem?

Vacuum effect. Screaming in a vacuum with no sound, is useless. And it wastes your breath; which you will need in 2.5 seconds. Wake up.

Now do something great! Go get your purple cow.

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Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Visions Of The Future – The Problems With Progress Today

Our ability to progress is only limited by peoples ability to adapt.
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Visions Of The Future

Some cultures plan 10 years in advance. It seems some cultures are planning hundreds of years in advance. What we need is someone with some real vision to to work with.

What could be accomplished

If you think about what could be accomplished, you might start to wake up. Most people are content with keeping the status quo intact. Why is it, that real change always feels like revolution? It must have something to do with the fact, that change is difficult for most people.

What is possible is only limited by people’s ability to adapt to change. Most people are so set in their ways, that keeping the status quo is the only thing keeping the peace. Change must be very difficult for them.

It seems just getting people to think about the possibilities is difficult to do. They don’t want to think, because they have not grown accustomed to thinking. They let someone else do all the heavy lifting, then who ever packages the ideas in the best box seems to be who wins.

While that is good for most people, my thoughts are; they should give my ideas some consideration. Some of these ideas will only come from me, unless someone tries to steal them. Hmm.

The Future

We have to ask ourselves, “What kind of world do we want to live in?” What kind of life do most people really want? Because it seems some people are content with any old plain existence they could be allowed to have, they don’t give much consideration to actually designing it themselves.

My goal is to help design the future. I sense that if we leave it to some of the people in charge, it will look like something vogons have made. That simply won’t do. You know about the vogons right? They have poor design skills.

Somehow the plans for the future have to be put on display in a public place for all to see. We should at least know what plans for the future there are. It doesn’t do much good to keep them in the basement, without any light to see them.

The future could be better. From a perspective of architecture, much can be improved upon. We need better transportation, housing, shopping, and entertainment avenues. The lack of culture in todays modern world leaves many with this feeling that life is empty and devoid of meaning.

Which isn’t really true, there is much meaning in life. There is much to be done. They allow their lack of ability to think to hold them back from understanding more is possible. The real problem is the thinking must be fixed before they can tackle other problems. The other problem is, they don’t have anyone to teach them how to think to be able to identify the problem. So they are basically blind to seeing the real facts.

The future will have to be designed. We have to have something that will really work for people that find change difficult, while still providing functionality for everyone.

Selfishness

People only really care about themselves. The functionality of today’s modern world has made it impossible for them to care about anyone else. If you want to see life get a lot better, then we have to open the heart in fundamental ways that allows the light in.

Too many today have allowed basic dignity to escape their grasp. Some have tried to take their dignity away, some have allowed theirs to be taken. A high minded civilization does NOT oppress its people. A high minded civilization is built to allow people to grow. Seems we have outgrown the old world, and everyone is trying to find new footing in an unstable world.

New systems have to be designed. With functionality that really works for a long time. What we have today is not 1/10 of what is possible for the world.

However, after giving it some thought; really the future can not be oppressive. There can not be any real progress until this problem is fixed. Until people start thinking what is best in the long run for everyone; the future will continue to look bleak.

Real Progress

Real progress for what the future can look like can only be made when people stop being oppressive and start changing for the better. Yet, change is so difficult; the status quo is the only thing to keep the peace.

Maybe the human race doesn’t want a better world? Doesn’t seem like it. They are content with any old existence out of a box they can get their hands on. Doesn’t feel very promising.

Do you see the problems? If you see the problem, start working to make the change needed to make life better for everyone.

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Visions For The Future – Essay

Really, people have to start thinking about the world we want to live in. Many are overcome with despair; however that isn’t going to solve the problem. This essay is some of my visions for the future. Please take the time to read it.

Space

Exploration of outer space may be beneficial, with the understanding those on this earth may only take material out of our own solar system for use on earth. You must not steal material from other worlds / solar systems outside our solar system.

There is some good that can come from space. If nothing else, we wonder who the first painter will be to paint in zero gravity? Maybe they will be famous? You never know.

Point: As long as space travel doesn’t drain resources on this planet, there is some good that come from space exploration. Don’t junk the solar system up. We all have to live here.

Technology

The future can be better. We have to think a few centuries in advance, seems most people are only thinking, 5 years, or 10 years into the future. This simply won’t do, we have to plan a few hundred years in advance. Life could be better for everyone with the proper use of technology.

We need systems that work. What we have today isn’t great. Its all kind of neat, but just expensive toys compared to what we need. The way things are, most people are being taken advantage of. Seems some people put profits ahead of everything. This has to change.

Resources

There are enough resources when used properly. Waste will leave us wanting more in a few centuries. We have to think in advance. Some of the things that need to be changed include using hydrogen fuel cells that output more water, and the correct use of nuclear fuels.

Our cities are awful wasteful. We need to find ways to have better community and education resources. And the use of resources in a more positive way. Water is important to our survival, and must be maintained.

We need cities that are better designed for transportation, around central hubs with points of interest. Also, transportation to and from points used for shopping. This has to be a lot better.

Design cities with enough advance knowledge that will work for long periods of time, even with growth.

Food

Don’t muck with the good stuff.

Conclusion

Please start planning five centuries in advance. We have to have systems that will work and don’t disturb life as we know it. We have to be able to give people some hope for the future. I think the status quo is just waiting to be broken; we could all have better lives. People wouldn’t feel taken advantage of if their lives were worthy of living. We simply have to have enough culture to sustain wanting to exist in this world. The lack of culture is going to cause people to feel dis-heartened.

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Notes From Earth

My Cage Needs Torn Down
Notes from a steppenwolf

Are we living in a cage? The very fiber necessary to make life worth living, is missing from my existence. After taking inventory of what I have, it seems I have a cage. There are no friends, no job, no girlfriend in my life. The world lacks the ability to be selfless, because it seems no one gives a damn.

Being subjected to this mis-treatment, clearly this is not a humane way to exist. Certainly it feels like torment to me; it also feels like my rights are being violated. My existence in this manner is certainly not of my choosing, and after having worked diligently to change this situation for years, the situation is oppressive.

When the human race learns to be kind, this situation will get a lot better. There is nothing I can do to make my situation better; everything I have done thus far, it has all failed for me. The situation is not hopeless, it is however hosed; The human race is so selfish that no one will take the time to listen, to think, or to learn. Pity that they are so cruel.

My main complaint is the isolation. This isolation has spanned more than twenty years. There is no one to spend time with me, no one to talk with about what I value. It also seems, no one reads my work, or values it more than worthless trash.

I’m not able to do anything or say anything that will make them treat me different. There is absolutely nothing I could ever do that would change their behavior to treat me better. Nothing what so ever.

I don’t like my cage. This isolation is ruthless cruel. I’ve told them it hurts me, they have done nothing to make it better. Nothing at all to help make it better. I have reason to believe, that is the definition of cruel. For them to not care at all.

I hate my cage. It’s just me with my mind. No one reads my work, no one listens to me. They don’t give a shit what I think, believe, or want from life.

Also, there is no path to make it better. This life is all I ever have to look forward to. In twenty years, this situation has not changed to satisfactory level. That is twenty years of my life that I have been forced to endure this cage. Ruthless.

I wanted my life better. I wanted change for the better. Seems my status in life is so very low, that they don’t care what I want. It doesn’t matter to them at all. It’s not any skin off their nose, so they don’t give a damn about my needs.

Speaking of needs, my needs are not being met. My intellectual, emotional, physical needs; none of them are being met right. This cage has beaten the living life out of me. As a wolf, this captivity is cruel. The house cats enjoy the life they have; but the wolf feels it’s not been kind.

Really what kind of sick people think keeping a wolf to live like a house cat is kind? I’m tired of this cage. This cage, it’s not living. It’s a living death.

If I had some companions to talk with, and to spend time with me, someone that could inspire me to rise; then life would be worth living. This isolation is kicking the shit out of me. No one to talk with or share ideas with. The way things are, no one spends time with me, no one cares. The world couldn’t care. No one else does either.

The people that I thought I could count on, they have let me down hard. They treated me like shit. I don’t have anyone to turn to for help, nor advice. This cage keeps me confined like this. There is no way to make myself visible. And when I do try to make myself visible, it always fails. Nothing I have done in the last twenty years has been successful. Nothing.

The failure has hit hard. I hate this cage. It keeps me held in place, just like I was twenty years ago. I’ve been able to make my mind grow, but at great pain.

There is no emotional support here. This cage prevents me from having my emotional needs met. No friends, no job, no girlfriend. It’s been this way a very long time. Seems I’m not special enough for anyone to care about me. They didn’t care when I am alone and hurting from isolation.

I hate my cage. Have no desire to trade for a bigger cage. I want out of this damn cage. I want my freedom. I want to live my life. I want to have someone to spend time with me. I want to be able to have intelligent conversations with others. I want someone that can reason.

It’s not that difficult, it shouldn’t be that difficult. Yet, in twenty years; they have never been able to fix it. I’ve spent the last twenty years in this damn cage. It feels ruthless cruel. Why the abuse? Why the psychological torment like this? Am I a prisoner? Why? What right do they have to cage me?

It has made me mean. I would like to see you spend twenty years inside your own head and try to get out of this shit. Let’s see how you like my cage. I would like to see you live my life. You will beg for death, long before it’s over with.

I think that is fitting punishment. Those that caged me, should have to live my life. Let’s see how they deal with it. I want them to suffer, I want them to suffer like I have suffered. Let’s see how you like this psychological torment, I’ve endured it; let’s see how you deal with it. I hate my cage.

If I had some friends, this would be a nice escape pod. Since I am forced into solitary confinement with no friends, it’s a cage. It’s cruel. It could have been a home.

Part II
Does Anyone Have A Life?
Thoughts from a wolf

I’m curious to know, does anyone in this world have a life? Is anyone in this world really living? They say, most people just exist. That seems to be very true. I don’t have any friends, no job, no girlfriend, and no one to ask personally.

There is no one that I have ever known that has a life. So how are you people living? Do you have any kind of life at all? I’ve taken inventory of what I have, it seems this cage is all I have. How are you living? Do you like your cage?

Does anyone have their needs being met? Are you able to provide for yourself? Do you have an idea and the ability to see it turn into something successful? I have not had a success in twenty years. The only thing I have known is failure. I hate my cage.

Do you have the ability to dream, and see your dreams turn into something that works for you? How do you make such things happen for yourself? Do you have people that listen to you and respect you? Do you have a group of people that inspire you?

All I have known is this damn isolation. It’s all I have. This isolation is all I have known for twenty years; maybe more. How can I move my life from where I am living now, to a better more satisfying lifestyle? What path is there to take to make my life better?

Everything I have done has failed. The people that I thought would have my back; they are a let down. None of them could care about my life at all. Pity.

I don’t have opportunities. I’ve lacked the social circle to make my life better. I’m not able to rise, I’m not able to make myself visible to others. What kind of life can I look forward to? Seems my life is a living death. There is no path to make it better.

Humans are strange creatures. This world isn’t the place it used to be. It used to be a man had some way to make their life better, seems there always used to be a path that a man could take to change their life.

There is no path here. So how are you living? What path have you taken to make your life worth living? Are you really living? Does anyone in this world have a real life? Prove it.

This world feels like a damn cage. The isolation is the main factor in making it feel like a cage. If the isolation were to be fixed, the situation would be a lot better. By 1000%. In twenty years, they have not been able to fix the isolation. They don’t even care that I’m isolated like I am. It’s not any skin off their nose. It doesn’t bother them.

Seems a lot of people suffer from isolation. Some are like house cats and seem to enjoy it. However, you will never meet a wolf that enjoys solitary confinement for long periods of time.

The problem has continued, it has never been solved. Obviously; they lack the ability to solve the problem. They have prevented me from solving the problem, which means they don’t want a solution to the problem.

I have reason to believe; they are sick. This world is a twisted place. Pity. It could have been a lot better. I hate my cage.

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Written by: Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Thinking Outside The Box

Thinking Outside The Box – A primer

It has been a long time in getting here. It seems, I’m finally thinking outside the box. It didn’t take anything fancy; it happened on its own out of sheer bloody minded boredom.

There has been a number of years that passed in the process, and maybe it wouldn’t have taken so darn long if I had used other methods. It does however work for me; so there you go.

What is thinking outside the box? Maybe the best way to put it, is understanding that is beyond human grasp. The philosopher Søren Kierkegaard, had some things to say about thinking the unthinkable. And really, he inspired me to do better.

My thoughts are, that to find ones destiny; it is essential to understand something deeper than one’s navel. Sometimes people live their whole lives and never even make a scratch on the surface of their existence. Pity!

If you want to find your destiny, you have to work for it. You have to put in the blood, sweat, and tears that comes with the project. Lord knows, I’ve spent some long nights burning lean tissue to reach some of my epiphanies.

Coffee helps, if you’re going to be up late into the night with the thoughts of how to think the unthinkable. There really is no formula for thinking outside the box; only following your own train of thoughts for so darn long that you have mastered the ability to reason, think, and understand.

The son of man, what business have we with humans? Seems the world has been built to suppress natural thinking, and in the age of ignorance; many are starving to death intellectually. Seems there is no shortage of idiots these days thinking inside the box.

Really though, the box is built to keep the idiots in line. Since they can not think outside the box, then they can not grow, learn, or really think.

Some box. It’s built well. Because it took me forty-six years of living to be able to think outside the damn box. It required more pain than most are willing to endure. It may be true that with thought; comes a certain amount of pain, discomfort, and suffering.

It might have however been worthwhile. We will see. I’ve done the heavy lifting for most of the men in this world. If you want to benefit from it; then read my blog. Really any man can learn to think outside the box, and if you read my work; it will aid you a great deal in learning to think outside the damn box.

You won’t find it in booze, or drugs. Those things may even be a wrong turn in the mind of a true genius. You do however have to feed your head, and in these tough times, what you eat matters.

If you want to learn how to think outside the box, you have to be able to lift the whole darn box with your mind. This is no easy feat to accomplish. You have to think about everything the box contains, then reason on what isn’t in the box. That is a very simple way to put it. But to do so, requires that one be able to think something that is truly unthinkable by mortal humans. Thus, a great deal of pain to think the answer.

With no help, no guide, and no clear path for how to think such things, it’s almost impossible to accomplish. It however can be done.

Conclusion

If you want to master the art of thinking outside the box, you have to be willing to travel a path that few will ever adventure towards. It takes a lot of patience, pain, and sheer bloody minded thought to accomplish. You won’t reach a destination in a day, a week, or a year. It is like climbing Mount Everest; alone, in the dark, barefoot, and with an elephant on your back.

There is no such thing as luck. Only working towards a goal. Want to think outside the box? Better pack an elephant in your kit. They say the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. Take the same approach to thinking outside the box; one bite at a time.

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, the real Misfit!

Balance This

Validation Systems Essay

The world has some problems. Many of them can be solved. On matters of being valid, there is a complete lack of uniformity. This problem has created the mess this country and world now faces.

There are a lot of reasons people can feel valid. There is however something very toxic about people who are only self validated by themselves. Chiefly that they are without a doubt the biggest A-Holes on the planet. Think about it, someone that doesn’t care what anyone else thinks of them, and they think they are great; instant recipe for buttholes.

There needs to be a basic system of validation for people that are alive. This system of validation has to be open to anyone regardless of race, religion, disability, gender, or status.

Basically to be valid you have to meet a general competency test, and then expand on that competency every two years with at least two subjects.

The problem with today’s world is that you can no longer depend upon your family to make you feel valid, and you won’t get it from social media, or anyone else in today’s society.

A lot of times, people set up situations to invalidate someone for their own selfish purposes. And in today’s society once someone has made you invalid, you can never rise back up. The system will beat you to death.

There needs to be some level of fairness and dignity to be maintained in situations like these. Basic human rights are being violated by people who claim to be valid on the basis of being holy.

There needs to be a system that allows people to feel valid in the modern society without having to depend upon their family, or social media to feel like they are more alive than a warm sack of shit.

The wrongs that have been done in this world, there is no protection in place for people who have been condemned to death by the guise of a loving family member. There is no way to show proof otherwise either. There is no system with proper checks and balances in place to ensure that these things no longer happen. There is abuse of power, by people that are supposed to be good people. I see no resolution in the matter, and the injustice that has been done is unlawful and immoral.

There needs to be a system in place that people can seek validation on the basis of their competency, their skill, and their talents. Without such, this world will continue to be a cruel ruthless place to exist.

There is no system to protect people from the abuse of power in situations where power imbalances exist. This is especially important in the family and household.

Without some way to be valid in todays world, most people are going to be left to die. There has to be some system that protects people and something they can point to and say that they are not worthless trash in the world.

Something has to be done to prevent the abuse of power, where power imbalances are currently being abused. People that are cruel will continue to get away with being cruel without protections put in place where people can prove what they are made out of.

When the validation needed is withheld regardless of skill, effort, or talent; there is always a problem. When a person has no way to get, have, or maintain feeling valid, regardless of what effort they put forth there are clear signs of abuse.

Without a system to allow people to have something to point to and say they are valid, else the whole world is just worthless slaves. You don’t want that, do you?

Life has to get a lot better, and many problems have to be solved. Education is an important factor in life, and when there are people that abuse their power, education is abolished.

I would like to see this get a lot better, however there is no clear way to make it better, and there is no one to turn to for help. There are no clear checks and balances in place to protect people from being abused like I have been.

There are problems when your family makes you feel invalid and no one else will even care or pay any attention to you regardless of what effort you put forth. It makes a person seek attention, and without giving it thought will end in disaster for most people.

In conclusion, there needs to be a system that people can feel like they are valid and that gives them the feeling of being valid at something. There also has to be systems that prevent power imbalances from being exploited for wrongful reasons.

There has to be the standard that upholds dignity and the rights of living beings in this galaxy. The abuse of power and the lack of upholding ones dignity have gross moral consequences for those responsible. Solve this problem. On the bounce!!

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Written by Ctopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Life is, Things Are

On The Bounce, Stow that crap!

Life has been strange the last year. What most people don’t like about the last year, is what my life has been like for many years. This is really nothing new to me. Same crap, different day. You know?

However, my point about this year being strange still stands. I’ve seen a lot of projects come and go. Sometimes they turn out good. Other times, they turn out great; yet, no one cares either way. Seems people completely disregard my effort in the face of adversity. Is that true?

I’m bored with working for likes, or shares. No one really cares. I would however like to do something that wows you. Not sure what that would ever be, or if its even possible. Somehow I have reason to believe such things are not even possible in this day and age.

What most people fail to realize, life has made me tough. It might have even made me mean. I would like to see you live my life and not become a monster. I think it would destroy most people. I really do.

Yet, here I am. Still here after all these years. I would like to do some projects that make people smile. Some of what I have done is for myself and people like me. Some may understand it someday, if they really work at it.

Tough Life

Life has made me tough. Most people are never faced with the problems I have been forced to deal with in my life. I hope that you never really have to experience that either. It has been hell.

Still, I have answers if you are faced with impossible times like I have had to deal with. It is not easy; yet, it can be done. The skill it requires is beyond what most people will understand. They have no way to understand it. Because they lack the life experience to know the full story.

Most people, they eat what they are given. Most don’t think about much, and many are perfectly happy with that. I’ve had some failures in making my projects really stand out. Seems people don’t want much from me. Seems they don’t even want my friendship these days. Pity.

I’m bored with the status quo of my life. This living isn’t really living. It is an existence of sorts, I guess house cats would like it. However a wolf would find it a living death to endure this much.

The real problem is nothing new. This isolation has been happening for more than twenty years. At this point, I’m not even sure if there is any way to fix it. It is something I would like to have fixed right. Damn tired of this isolation like it is.

More to be done

Still, there are things to be done. Maybe life will change someday and this mess will be behind us all? Maybe! Bored with the way things are. Feeling like no one will ever care. Pity!

Still, check my projects out. They wait for you.

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What Is A Real Man Today?

What Is A Real Man

After a long time of consideration I have compiled a list of things that I feel make a real man. There are songs about this, however no one really has answered the question in a satisfactory way that makes people say, “Yeah that is what a real man should be.”

So without further hubbub Here is my list of things that make a real man.

Courage

A real man is valiant. In today’s world, a real man has to have courage to do what is right; and sometimes even risk his own life to set right the wrongs in the world. He is not a coward, he does not shrink back when foes attack.

Intelligence

A real man is intelligent. This spans greater than just being a database of information. A real man is wise, with understanding that is deeper than just being a walking phone book. Real men are intelligent, they engage in intelligent conversation, and writing, and reading. They know what is important, and what is a waste of time to pursue.

Honesty

A real man is honest. There are few that have the courage in today’s world to be really honest. It is important that a real man be honest with others, and himself. There is sometimes need for being able to keep a secret, however in most situations a real man is very honest in his dealings.

Respect

A real man is respectful of others and himself. He holds himself in deep respect, and expects to be treated with respect by others. He is kind in his dealings, and you could say that he shouldn’t be a toxic eye sore to others.

Strength

A real man is strong in emotional and physical ways. Even mentally strong. A real man can endure pain, discomfort, and burdens without loosing his cool or coming into rage and hate. A real man is one that takes care of himself, and others in ways that keeps everyone functioning well.

Creativity

A real man is creative. He has his ways of expressing himself and being creative that are applied to everyday living, and artistic pursuits. Being creative is also a sign of intelligence.

Morality

A real man has moral standards that he upholds and lives by. These are his core principles that make his life worthy of living with himself. A real man knows that being toxic isn’t a moral option that he should pursue.

Sanity

A real man is sane. This doesn’t mean that he lives like a damn vegetable and has no life outside his easy chair. It means that he is has self mastery of his entire body, heart, and mind. He shouldn’t be overly emotional or easily con-able.

Godliness

A real man aspires to rise above the common herd and their base ways. While not being judgmental, he should have an aura of splendor about himself.

Cleanliness

A real man can get dirty. Doing man type things will often get you less than clean. However, in general a real man is a clean person in his living conditions, and his physical appearance.

Years

It may take years for a boy to develop into a real man. People should be willing to give them the time to develop their character into becoming what they should be.

In conclusion, a real man should be courageous. He shouldn’t be addicted to drugs or alcohol. He should be wise, kind, and avoid people that are toxic. Let me know what you think of this list of what a real man should be, if I’m missing anything in this list.

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Advice For People That Want To Be Smarter

You want to be wise? Be careful how you spend your time. Make the best use of your time that you have. Be careful what you spend time talking about, or watching. This is some of the simplest advice for people that want to be smarter.

That said, there are a number of things one can do to make their life better. The smartest are not always the happiest. Read that again. It is best if you can be content with what you have. If you have the ability to make good use of your time, and can do what you love; then you have a good combination.

If you just want to be smarter, ask yourself why you want to be smarter? Wisdom is more than being a good living database. You have to know how to apply what you know in the best way possible.

There are many people that are good databases, they know tons of information. But ask if they know how to use that data, you might be surprised to learn; they are just as confused as you are.

That said, really you should do what you love. While there is very little love being shown to those who do. You have to pick out the process that you enjoy the most, then; do that!

A lot of people will give you the advice, to be popular, to be important, and to have a life; that you have to fit in. They won’t believe the people that think outside the box; because if they did, it would threaten their whole existence. That will never do. Really you have to package your ideas in ways people that still believe in the box will understand.

This means it has to be gentile on their minds. Something new is always regarded as being too bold, too forward, or unnecessary. It is only after its been around a while that they start to see the advantages. If you want to be smarter, seek first to understand yourself. Know what you want.

If you really want to be smarter, first you have to teach yourself how to really think. You have to move past the point of having thoughts and get to the point you actively control your thoughts and emotions. Having a high emotional IQ is just as important as being intellectually smart. Really you have to have some balance about these things.

Make good choices. Make good use of your time. Do what you can. Everything else is just a matter of continued effort at the same level with the same amount of enthusiasm and effort to sustain new levels.

Intelligence is more than being book smart. How you express yourself creatively matters too. There are problem solving skills, and skills of how to execute your plans once they have been formed.

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Life has to get better for everyone, and right quick.

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There should be some good misfits out there that still want to read. I know its difficult. But it can be more fun than playing video games. My books are not boring. Not at all. They may even give you a thrill.

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Ctopher

Project Write A Book

Thoughts On Being An Author

There are many activities in life that can bring a person happiness. Having a wonderful life is just the start, there are some things in life that everyone should try at least once.

For me, this includes having written a book, or two. Being an author has a special kind of rewards to it. To say that writing an entire book with your own two hands and publishing it is a feat would be an understatement.

Writing your first book will make you pull your hair out. Learning to think in words and writing well, while trying to keep the plot strait, and not loose sight of the goals, it is quite the task to perform.

It gets easier once you write on a regular basis. However the first book will always have a special place in your heart as something you can be proud of having done. It takes an incredible amount of focus and attention to detail to write an entire book.

It is something everyone should do. Really! I think most people should write at least one book in their lifetime. With the technology we have available today, it is not only possible; it is also very practical.

Learn To Write, Learn To Think

People that write, are also people that read. My thinking in this matter is that if people were to write more often, then maybe they would start reading a lot more too.

While there is no proof that writers read more, I think it is sensible to believe that people that write read more often. I know my ability to read and write have improved over the years.

However, I have not undertaken the massive effort to write a new book in some ten years. While I have dabbled in short stories off and on over the years, actually writing a full book; daunting and frightening.

This may be one reason I recommend that others take on this project of writing their first book, because people need the experience of writing that first book and being scared shitless and out of their minds with trying to edit it.

I want the best for you. I really do. Hence, my suggestion that you take the time, learn to write; then start writing your first book. If you start now; four or five years from now, you might make it happen.

Results Are Few, But Worth It!!

Don’t expect success. Don’t expect rave reviews. However, what you will learn about the process and the effort it takes to complete this project are invaluable. It’s the kind of feeling you couldn’t get from watching TV.

Take the time, start today. Write the book that you want to read. Someone has to, because if they don’t; this world will be book poor in no time. There is a quote: Books will get you through times with no money; but money won’t get you through times without books.

That is likely very true. I wouldn’t know; the only thing I have are my books. It might be nice to have a taste of what the other side feels like, but I think I will keep most of my books.

Like I said, there is no experience like writing and publishing your first book. It’s a gigantic task. It takes months or years of effort, and will make you question what you know. You have to write something that you really believe in. See where it takes you; you might like it.

Please write something that puts beauty back into life. We have enough problems with life as it is. However, the issues of how to resolve conflict are subjects of entire library’s. Yet, remember to write something with a sense of hope, and make it beautiful so that the reader wants to read it.

Have Some Love

This takes being really in love with the words you write. You have to have a respect for them. Words and ideas can change the world, given enough time and skill.

As far as writing a new book; I have my doubts about taking on this task in the near future. Maybe someday, when I have the idea that really sits with me like a ton of bricks. My interest is really in putting something beautiful back into life. I’m going to have to work on it for a while.

Thus, you should start today. Because it may take many years for your book to come to completion. It is an important project that everyone should undertake once in their lifetime. It is also something that everyone should have to endure too. It will change your opinion of the task of writing good books.

Maybe if enough people write their first book, they will start to appreciate what good writing is really about? Maybe. One can always have hope. Maybe your book will change the world; give it a shot.

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The Humans Vacation

When Tomorrow Is October

Looking back, the life we want and the life we have don’t always look the same. Sometimes they are very different. And knowing what path to take at a young age is seldom obvious.

Seems sometimes you have to fly by the seat of your own pants. Sometimes things are too easy to be fun, other times the difficulty exceeds the skill we have. That isn’t to say it isn’t still a bit of fun. It’s been fun, it hasn’t been great. Sometimes I would dare to say it hasn’t even been good.

Life has kicked the shit out of me more than once. It has been rough going some days. It did however get a lot better. Maybe it won’t always be total crap; things change. People change. Sometimes others are too dumb to see that people have changed. It isn’t always obvious. But what is these days?

I’m bored with the status quo in this world. Life is a lot of mundane boring and trivial times. Seems sometimes its necessary, but it isn’t always much fun. The world is changing. Times are changing. Maybe some will survive this world? No one really knows. Life is rough. A lot of people are unhappy.

I enjoy what I do. I really do. It just seems that I want more from my life. I’m getting old, too old to do some things I would like to try, and should have done twenty years ago.

Life has its ways of making the years pass by, and before you know it; Wham! You’re eighty years old in a nursing home talking about how your car was the best, because you liked it. Life does that shit to people. Happens everyday.

The quality of life can be understood. By how much we love, or the lack of love in our lives. Love is important. There are other things in life that make life worthy of our time. It is important to have our priorities in order. Seems this world has forgotten what matters. Does anyone even know in this modern world? I wonder?

There are things that help pass the time. Music helps. It is a good start in the right direction. So is making music. That is a good positive thing to be doing. There comes a time, when you start to understand things in new ways. I just wish that my understanding would have come to me sooner. There was a lot of wasted years in between the time that I was too young to know better and the time that the light came on.

Poor Instruction Make Junk

Seems sometimes we have been given bad instructions. That is something I would like to change about this world. Seems the information and teaching needs to change.

The human race needs to go on vacation. Maybe that will give the God enough time to clean this crap up and make it better. Maybe they will be gone long enough to make a difference. In my humble opinion they need to be re-educated. Life is rough.

Most things in life only come the hard way. Seems that we forget the easy way doesn’t always bring results we want. Life needs to change for the better and right quick. It is getting better in some ways. Still we have a long ways to go.

My past blog posts have talked about some of the problems, and offered solutions to some of the more serious problems I see taking place in this world. No one is really reading, I wonder if anyone would ever notice? Maybe someday; like in a hundred years or more.

Sad state of affairs in this world. People are unhappy. Sometimes they aren’t really sure why they are unhappy, but they know something doesn’t add up. Almost as if someone has pulled the wool over their eyes, and they stubbed their toe on something they couldn’t even see.

Maybe that is a good way to put it. A lot of people want life to change. I know that I do. Too often we are in a rush. Everyone going at the speed of life. Sometimes we miss the finer points of what life is about. Maybe we will wake up in time. The world could be a better place to live.

The world has become a cruel place to live. Please start being humble and being kind to each other. I think this is important advice. Life has to get better, and some people just want to be understood. Or loved. There isn’t enough love in life for this world to sustain the current pace.

Love and Kindness

If love and kindness become luxury goods, no one can afford to stay in this world. It just wouldn’t work for anyone. Life has to get better, and people have to change for the better.

The world needs peace. The world needs kindness. Do what you can to be the change that makes the world a little better for everyone. It does matter, and you matter; be the light in a dark place. Once others start to see, they can be lights also.

Maybe life will change. Like I said, the human race needs a long vacation from this world. They need to re-charge their batteries. I think a lot of them have become a little too cranky. Maybe they will get what they think they need and be happier soon.

May you have peace of mind.

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Thoughts

Life is what God and men make it. Seems humans haven’t been doing a very good job keeping things in good shape, or running smoothly. My thoughts about this are that peoples attitudes and priorities are not in line with what matters the most.

Seems everyone these days is kind of bent in some way. Maybe this world is some kind of junk box? There is beauty here, if you look for it. However, you won’t find it if you’re looking in the wrong places.

We have to get back to what will really make us happy. I’ve been thinking about this. Sometimes what we think will make us happy, in the long run; really doesn’t satisfy. The world needs peace, humans have forgotten how to be kind. They have lost touch with their humility.

Something needs to change in this world. Most humans aren’t thinking, they don’t listen; and they don’t want to be wrong about anything. Humans need to get back to always being beginners. When everyone thinks they are experts, there is a lot of problems.

This is what we are seeing today. Everyone in their own eyes thinks they are experts, and none of them ever want to admit they are wrong. Because they don’t want to look bad; even for a second.

When you have the right frame of mind, everything else is easy. Too many people today have the wrong frame of mind about their lives. This makes things get out of perspective, and people loose touch with their priorities and then their attitude gets all bent.

Life has to get better. It really does. At this rate, the world will blink and be out of existence. There has to be some changes made in life. Start by being humble in your life. Then work on being kind to everyone. Work on your thoughts until you can live with yourself, and others are willing to live with you.

When everyone gets in the game, life gets better for everyone. That is what we want. Too many today are positive they are right about the wrong stuff. They need to work on their priorities and their attitudes until they are being humble and kind.

Here is some music to start your meditation with. Give it a listen!

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Sanity IQ Quiz

Take your results with a grain of salt. However, there might be some fun to be had by playing. Give it try, unless you try; you never really know. You want to know, right?

This was a project in my spare time that was something to do for fun. I guess I have strange idea of what fun is. To each their own, you know?

This is a relative safe game to play. You might like your results, which would be a good thing. It will give you something to do. Give it a shot. Go play now.

Sanity IQ Test

Thoughts On Validation – What Makes You, You?

Thoughts On Validation

A few days ago, a subject came up about someone else and how they must feel about themselves. My Mumz said the persons self esteem must be rock bottom because the only validation she seeks is online. Below are a few of my thoughts on validation.

After giving it some thought, I have reason to believe there are a wide variety of ways people seek validation. Let’s examine a few of them starting with the biggest first.

Money In The Bank

Money – Lets face it, those with money feel validated and like they are special. They have either worked for their money or they have inherited it through their family. Therefore, they are the most privileged among the humans. Because, they have special validation, because they have the power and the money. Those with the most money need no validation from poor people because they are above them.

Having Employment

Having A Job – This one is nice. You get validation from making your living and from the work that you do. It is really one of the best ways to feel valid. If you love your job and are making money at what you do then you feel a sense of accomplishment and like you have validation from doing good work.

Having Love In Your Life

Having A Significant Other – Having someone in your life that is willing to commit their whole life to you. Let’s face it, having a warm loving relationship gives people a sense of validation. Having someone that is willing to marry you and have your children is a great way to feel valid. It will make you feel like a man, it will make you want to do better because you want to make their lives better.

Having Family That Loves You – Having relationships that are in good working order and having peace of mind that there is nothing you could ever do that would make them not love you, this has a sense of security to it. Its a form of validation. Everyone needs to have family that loves them.

Having A Few Good Friends

Having A Few Good Friends – This gives you a sense of belonging and having meaning in your life. If you lack all of the above, then having a few good friends will help make up for the hurt of being poor, alone, and jobless. If you have none of the above, you are a special kind of problem.

The Problem

In my life, they have withheld the affection of giving me the validation I needed. But the realization that I don’t need their approval is such a feeling. Human society is set up so everyone needs some kind of validation and sense of belonging to live a happy life. When they deliberately withhold those things to get you to conform to their evil ways, you have to make the choice to cut them loose.

I’ve been nineteen years without a job, friends, or significant other. Been isolated, poor, and abused for a very long time. My family doesn’t care about the work I perform, and it doesn’t earn any kind of living.

I’ve decided that the human race has lost my respect.

I certainly don’t need validation from the human race that I’m any good. They couldn’t live my life. That is for sure. No one would have lived through what I’ve been through. It has almost killed me a few times.

So on matters of validation, the human race has a lot of things that make them feel valid, having money, having jobs, having love in their life, and having a dog.

What They Lost

Therefore, what they have lost is their humility and what they were supposed to be, which is human kind. They have been cruel to me. Wish it would have been better. I sure could have used some help. No one was willing to extend the offer.

Humans are victims of the insane. They couldn’t think if they wanted to.

In conclusion, what I think of them is below average. Because of the way they have treated me. They got what they wanted, they hurt me a lot. Wish they could have been kind. The world is a sick place. Seek your own salvation; friend see to it.

Those are some of my rough thoughts on validation, there is more!

Written by Ctopher Thomas, founder of MyDigitalChaos.net

This post has been edited to make it kinder.

Creative Fuel – Guide To Success

How to have more creative fuel to burn

In order to be really creative, you have to have some fuel to burn. It is the process of using this creative fuel to create new work that produces a work of art. But if you are on empty how in the world do you fill back up?

You should prime yourself with this article about Calibrating For Success, then make use of this article.

The process is different for different people. However there are some things that will help inspire you if you use them correctly. Sometimes you have to fill the tank with good stuff. Other times you have to starve the beast and let hunger do the job.

Sometimes, you have to a little of both. So what works for me is that of careful meditation. By using a thoughtful approach I’m able to have creative fuel, and burn enough that work is completed.

Have More Than One Project In The Fire

Sometimes it helps to have multiple projects. This gives you a backup plan for when things don’t go as expected. By having more than one project to work on, you can stay busy and keep your flow going. Being able to do other projects also enables you to learn new skills. If you are always pushing new boundaries then you always be growing.

If you learn new skills you will find they come in handy in other areas of your work. It all adds up in the long run.

Do More Than Humanly Possible

You have to be doing a great deal of work. This requires doing more than humanly possible on a regular basis. You have to get to be so darn good that people take notice of you and your work.

If you plan carefully, it is possible. You have to be diligent and calm and relaxed. Then you have to work your butt off like never before. It is possible, you just have to be willing to do what is difficult.

Therefore, if you starve yourself from unnecessary activity, you have more time to do good stuff.

Be Careful What You Use For Creative Fuel

Too much TV will bum you out. Try listening to a lot of music. Change your music up enough that you are listening to old and new music from a wide variety of genres. Try listening to classical when you are sleeping at night. Its a great way to effect your dreams and your mood.

Therefore, these are some tips to get you started. Find out what works for you.

Written by Ctopher Thomas

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Calibrate Yourself For Success

The True Need To Calibrate Yourself For Success

In times such as these, there is something everyone needs to be aware of. We have been living in our comfort zones, and when times were easy that was a good thing. To be successful, we have to calibrate ourselves for success.

However the times they are a changing. It is important to measure and align ourselves on a regular basis. This helps us stay on top of our game, and be effective in our goals.

Simple by acknowledging that life is different now, we can help align ourselves with current events, this way we can deal with the situation without living in fear, or being overly anxious.

It’s important to put situations into perspective, and understand them too. If we use our past experiences to guide us in current world events, we may not be correctly aligned with the true potential that is here today.

Understanding Potential

So calibrate yourself. Bring your heart and mind into alignment with the current world situations. Then take steps that will make your life better in the long run.

This requires thinking outside the box a little. It can however be done. It is possible for everyone. If you discover something great, please share it with the world. It’s not cool to keep good things that will help everyone to yourself.

Really we want to make life better for everyone. It is important that we all be able to live in a better world. Calibrate yourself. Put your emotions, and your thinking in line with being kind, in doing the right things, and in being effective in helping others.

Calibrate your mind to adapt to the current thinking needed to be effective. This is important. The current world events requires a different way of thinking to stay on top of your game. You have to be able to change the way you think just enough to be able to deal with it.

Small Changes Are Working

Small changes. Make some small changes, it’s not difficult to do. Then see how effective those changes are. If they are successful, great! You will have found something that works. If those changes are not successful, then continue to make changes until you find one that works better. Calibrate yourself for success, follow these simple rules of KFC! I’m not sure who said it first, it wasn’t me. This quote may be attributed to Nicolas Boothman, but I’m not sure about that.

This is a short essay on how to calibrate yourself. Or in even shorter format, remember the rules of KFC,

Know what you want.
Find out what you are getting.
Change what you do until you get what you want.

That is it in a nutshell. Calibrate yourself to current situations. You will be happier in the long run.

Written by Ctopher Thomas.

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Song

Here is some music. After an almost eight year hiatus from making music, I’m thinking about getting back into the groove of things. I’ve been so damn bored, it seems only logical. Therefore groove on.

I’ve found out, life isn’t fair. You got to get tough. Life is trying to kill everyone, don’t let it get you down. It is just life. Be tough, show some grit, maybe we will make it. You know? Because life is rough, and you have to be tough.

ctopher42 · Just Smoke It

Potential To Change The World

Potential

There is a lot of potential in life. Everyone has some for something. The question is if we make use of our potential? A lot of people get comfortable, and want to live like warm bodies with clean faces. Anything that requires something new is considered to be too difficult.

Yet, we have this potential. It’s something, it really is. There are a few factors that play into these things, I want to talk about them with you.

To be effective is a goal a lot of people have. Being effective depends on a few factors. Some of them include how good looking you are, how well you speak, and people’s willingness to follow you into the heat.

Being successful may depend upon how much potential you have, how effective you are, and how well you can execute your plans. So there are at least three factors that play a role in the process.

Leverage The Factors

Therefore, how can a person leverage the factors in their favor? There has to be some way to make a difference in the world that has the positive effects that we need to see happen. Because life is short, we have a limited amount of time…

We need less glory and more true leaders in our world. Seems everyone is looking to the next paycheck, missing the point entirely.

I’ve found, few will listen. Even fewer will spend the time to find out more. It is a sad state of affairs in this world these days. My need and instinct says that I need to find people that will help. Because, we have to make the world a better place to live. Before it is too late to loath ourselves. The world has some problems. A lot of can still be changed. We can make a difference.

To be effective. To bring forth change. It is a slow process, but one that doesn’t have to be painful. If people start thinking again, start talking again, maybe someone will listen?

So Many Miles To Go

Life has to get better. We need a better world, and a better life for everyone. So how can someone help? The changes have to take place in our homes, and when we are in the world.

It seems we can not leave things the way they are. Because that would be to invite disaster. Really we need to see the events from the past, and reverse engineer the future based on what has already happened thus far. Everything could be predicted with accuracy.

Therefore, we need to head disaster off at the pass, before it is too late.

Written by Ctopher, you can see my website here: ctopher

Photo Credit: Photo by Juliana Kozoski on Unsplash

Comfort Zones

If there is one thing that will knock your creativity for a sour loop, it is your comfort zones. You get comfortable, you get too comfortable, and your creativity starts to take a nose dive.

I’ve heard it said, “Stay hungry, stay foolish!” I had always thought its good advice and while I understood it on the surface level, it took me a while to realize its about staying outside one’s own comfort zone.

So in these strange times, be aware; have a care. Still you have to do something that scares you a little bit every day. Just going for a walk isn’t really enough, you have to be pushing the envelope in your everyday living.

Try writing a stranger, or talking with someone new. Go indoor skydiving once or twice. You have to be doing something that is outside your current frame of mind. That is how new ways of looking at things is discovered. That is how growth happens.

Don’t get too comfortable if you want to be highly creative. That comfort zone will make sour paintings if you are not careful.

Stay brave, Stay strong. Calibrate Yourself For Success!

You can read a great article about doing something brave here: https://www.wakeupcloud.com/putting-yourself-out-there/

Photo Credit: Photo by Alexander Kaunas on Unsplash

New Year, The Worlds Identity Crisis.

Wake up!

The time has come. We are twenty years into this century, it’s time to wake up. Life has to get better for everyone. At the turn of the 20th century, life was very different. In a hundred years we have come a long ways.

However, we can not leave the world the way it is, and expect anyone to be happy. Therefore it is time to change. This new year, ask yourself if you are happy? What would make everyone happy?

Do you know what makes real happiness? Because it seems society has long lost its way, and the world has an identity crisis at the moment. The world doesn’t know who it wants to be. Therefor we have to understand the problem.

There are many ideas. There are many people with answers. One of the problems is getting others to agree. Because it seems like everyone is too busy to notice. Why? It’s difficult for everyone to get on the same page. This results in the common denominator and it isn’t working out.

Rise from Slumber

Life is. Things are. We want life better for everyone. Those with no understanding lack the ability to see from a different perspective. Really seeing from a different perspective helps us to see beyond our limits. Everyone should not be limited by those with no understanding. That isn’t healthy.

Therefore we need to see past our current situation, and see further into the future. We need to have some real vision for what we want.

We should all be working together to make life better. This old world may never change, however we wish it would. We need to understand. Therefore it’s time to start thinking. A lot of the attitudes and feelings in life today are carried over from previous decades and generations. Because it is time we get in the present, get current, and adjust our attitudes to the current situations.

The attitudes from fifty years ago will not help us solve the problems we have today. Because some of the skills to deal with problems have changed. The real skills have been forgotten. We do however see many with short tempers and short attention spans. Thus if we work to change our behavior, and change our attitudes, there is hope for everyone.

It’s time we get back to having patience, and some love. Therefore really having some unconditional love helps a lot. This will result in people being kinder, and we all need more kindness in life.

A New Understanding

This world’s identity crisis has reached epic proportions. It seems like there is something that needs done to make life better for everyone. Because we can not fail to make it better. Something has to change for the better. Because a lot of people have been unhappy for a long time, it’s time to wake up, and realize life can be better. Do what you can for others. Be the hand of a stranger to help those around you.

Because older generations need to relinquish their power, let younger generations take the lead. When the older generations serve as advisors to the younger people coming up the line. As a result, we will have the desired changes take place. Therefore it’s really time for old ways to change. Yes, change is difficult, and scary sometimes.

In addition, the worlds identity crisis isn’t going to fix itself. The younger generations can fix a lot of the problems. However, please don’t abandon us, just put your ego aside for a while and let the work be done.

My Digital Chaos – Quick Guide

Quick Guide

One of my goals is to make life better for everyone. After thinking for a long time about what I could personally do to make life better, this list was compiled.

Each week we will release a new tip. So stay tuned and follow the story to help make your life better, and maybe someone else’s life better too.

The point is to stop living like zombies and start living. Pretty soon life will be better for everyone.

Watch the video here–> Video Removed. maybe someday.

Week 1 Journaling

Keep a journal. It’s really simple. Everyday write down either with pen and paper or by typing it, the important thing is to journal for ten minutes every day. It’s best if you can write first thing in the morning just after waking up during your first cup of coffee.

Keep a journal for a few years and always review them every few months.

Week 2 Bad TV Habits

Stop watching TV. This one is a bit tricky. Really though if you want to be happy, you have to start living. Real people get their emotional stimulation from direct interaction with other real live people. Cats get their pixelated decaf from watch the tv.

For the next year, unplug your tv set, and spend the time you would be watching tv to do something more interesting. Like learning.

Week 3 Meditate

Ideally you should spend at least an hour meditating every day. This is quiet time that you spend in contemplation. If you’re too busy to meditate for an hour each day, then spend two hours, because you need the practice.

This will sharpen your mind. This will make you smarter. And better the rest of your life. It’s worthy of doing, and will help you in your daily life.

Week 4 Practice Compassion

If you practice compassion in your daily life, with all that you go about doing, when sudden problems arise, like someone cutting you off on the freeway, you have already prepared to handle the situation. Danger lies when something catches you off guard and throws you for a loop. Be prepared and practice compassion ahead of time, that way you don’t have any surprises.

Week 5 Listen to Music

Listening to music stimulates your mind for better creativity, and dealing with life. Ideally you should be listening to music as much as possible. Make a ten hour play list, and listen to it for a year everyday on repeat.

Notice how you feel? Also you should be listening to music when you are sleeping at night. Try some classical music. It will keep you going.

Week 6 Food and Stuff

Watch what you eat. The better food you eat the better you feel. Everyone should have access to good wholesome food that doesn’t make you feel like crap. Speaking of which, when you eat, set a timer, and see how long after you finish eating before you have to use the bathroom. If after two minutes you crap your pants the food likely isn’t that good.

Week 7 Coffee

Get enough coffee. After drinking coffee for a while, notice how you feel. Drink as much as one half gallon of coffee a day. If you’re doing everything else right, this shouldn’t bother you.

Just don’t brew your coffee so weak that it looks like tea.

Week 8 PEMI

Record your Physical, Emotional, Mental, and Intellectual scores a few times everyday to track your progress. The goal is to be Sustainable and function at 100% of your capacity. If your not working at 100% then find out what is hurting your performance.

This app is available now. It’s called PEMI. Look for it.

Week 9 Creativity

Be creative. You should have some ways of expressing yourself that are positive ways to make life good. Take up a hobby doing something creative that makes you feel good. If you take up art, don’t be afraid of making bad art, just make art.

Enjoy the experience. Do something creative like writing, or making music, or drawing. Find your creative edge and work to master it. There is something for everyone. Find your groove.

Week 10 Tell Someone Else!

Blog your experience. Share your journey as you go through these processes with others. As you’re working on all ten of these items all at the same time, your growth will start to progress and you will find yourself being productive and competent.

Why You Are Miserable…

I have heard it said that five percent of the people think, ten percent think they think, and the other eighty five percent would rather die than think. This essay is for the ten percent that think they think. I want to feed your mind, you don’t have to think like me, you just have to think.

I have said that to know the truth you have to know what some of the lies are. That is because if you believe the lies you won’t see clearly the real truth they want to hide from you. I am not going to tell you what the lies are, you have to think and ponder those things yourself.

Whats Your Soul Say?

What i can do is ask some questions to guide you into asking yourself the tough questions that you need to understand. No one can do this for you, you have to be willing to go there in mind and spirit regardless of how it makes you feel. There is the main point, most people are afraid of thinking because they don’t want anything that makes them feel bad. Most people want sunshine and rainbows all the time, they don’t want to think because they are afraid of their own thoughts.

You can overcome these fears and still be happy. You can ask yourself the questions and think about the answers for a long time. The truth is once you begin to enjoy thinking, you might find it difficult to ever stop. In zen they talk about enlightenment, I don’t care what you want to call it; thinking is good for you. Most people reach a point that they stop growing, they stop learning and become comfortable with they way things are. I believe this is unhealthy. To truly rise above the status quo you have to learn, grow, and push your comfort zone everyday.

Practice Makes Perfect

Thinking requires breaking your comfort habit and exploring things that make you uncomfortable. Thinking for long periods with no direction will spin your wheels and not take you very far. The goal is to reach a destination in mind and spirit. To be content with life, to be happy and at peace with all beings.

If you find you are always angry or you get upset easily, if you are bitter in spirit; you have a long ways to go. Not everything is about you, not everything is about your fragile insecure ego. When you learn to think your ego learns to relax, you don’t have to always be right. This is where virtue comes in, a person of virtue can be patient enough to learn something new, no matter how long it takes to understand.

The answers won’t come in a second, an hour, a week, or even a year. The thought process takes a long time to become clear. To begin start asking questions about what you already know, challenge the answers. Make arguments for and against them until you are completely confused. Then look to see what the lies are until you have truths you understand. Only when we lose ourselves can we find our true self.

Be Patient

It’s important to be patient with your mind. If you are in a hurry you may as well stay in your small superficial world and never bother with these things. If you are in a rush to get somewhere you had better hope you have already gained the ability to think for yourself. Learning to think for yourself in your own way is the most rewarding gift you can give yourself. Freedom of thought, Freedom to control your thoughts, to be free from manipulation of the media, news, and propaganda will make you happier in the long run.

Most people live their lives on auto pilot, only thinking what they already think they know. Pride is the enemy. To navigate the world of pure reason you have to always be a beginner in spirit. In the experts mind there are few possibilities, in the beginners mind there are many. At first there will be confusion about why there are so many possibilities. Find the ones you like to think about and ponder them in depth.

Take out the distraction from your life and see what is left to think about. If you take the distractions away you have more time to think about what’s important. Learn some new skill or trade. See how long it takes you to master it. Then move to something else, and master that too.

Captains Log

Lost Love

This underground account of the lost love that was only possible. Although it wasn’t practical. Adults forget the secrets they once knew. Mostly because the system tries to beat out any trace of wisdom or knowledge. Anything that isn’t hidden in Poetry.

Even then your odds are based upon the probability of pi. Speaking of odds, this reminds me of a story that I wrote some sixteen years ago. It was bad timing for a story. It was however good practice and there was something that was needed to be recalled.

Those that listen to the wind, and hear the voice in the running stream. Those of us know of higher callings in life than the rat race and its bone chilling hate.

Those that know what it means to know kindness. Those are the ones that know of truth. You will find it in most dogs that haven’t been abused. However it is never seen in a cat. They lack the very basic fiber to know the difference and lack the ability to be like a dog in any way.

Be Like Fido

A paradox of absurdity is trying to make cats turn into dogs. It’s messy and the cats don’t like it. That is to be more specific that it is mostly bad for the cats. The dogs however find that the cats who abused them, will benefit from knowing better understanding. If nothing else perhaps for a short time in their brief lives.

There was this dream from my childhood that I remember of being in a garden. There was a tree that was so pretty. It was in the fall of the year and the tree was losing its leaves. As the light wind blew the tree’s leaves started to rain down, and in the maelstrom there was one that I caught as it fell through the air.

This is to say that as a leaf was blowing in the wind. I caught one before it touched the ground. However in a dream anything could be magic and this was no different. The garden disappeared and there was a lady who is my equal that met my gaze.

She says to me, “It was not by chance that you caught that leaf falling through the air, and you and me are right as rain.”

“Who are you my dear that I may know more?” I ask her with my eyes full of wonder and my heart feeling warmer and lighter than any dream.

Dreams

“You will know who I am, no words can describe our bond.” Then she took the leaf from my hand and said, “Now go into the world and be born again. Find me if you dare, but Remember to wake up before the sleeper wakes.”

Then upon closing my eyes I was born new in a fresh world with oxygen and a place that was strange. Although it is wonderful, and very different.”

I had no idea what was in store for me. To say a heap of living would be an understatement. It’s been more like a dream that makes your head hurt, and your body ache.

Looking through the streets with no name, and finding none that would match the divine soul I was looking for. What is a man in need to do? They ask for help. In such a dream like world, even asking for help is seen as weird to the dream. They don’t know how to make heads or tails of the situation.

If they could help, would they? It might be it would defeat the purpose of trying to keep the dreamer asleep. Would they want you to wake up too soon? Then there is also the risk of over sleeping and being late to the party.

Both are bad. Try navigating through the world looking for someone that doesn’t want to be found. Is it a game of hide and seek or just the careless wind blowing in the south?

Wind Blows Bleak

Speaking of which in a dream does the wind actually give a damn where it blows? That is absurd, to think the wind thinks it blows. The wind exists, we think it blows but to the wind it’s just existing. Need you really define the wind as blowing to know it exists?

In a dream, people will try to show you fools gold, and pictures of desire that leave you as empty as an old bottle of booze. However like that empty bottle of booze dreaming while dreaming is absurd and leads to confusion like having drank that bottle of booze.

Creative Environments

Creative Advice

This is a short essay I wrote about creative environments. It’s not a complete book, it is however only some very basic ideas to help people get started. It is by no means complete. Hence it is not perfect. Please don’t base life upon this document. It’s not a guide, it’s not even any good. To be honest no one will ever read it, because I’m not perfect.

This is however some idea when the chet hits the fan how to deal with some tough times. Life isn’t always perfect. Neither is everyone living. To be honest my condition isn’t this bad; it just feels like it. Most days I’m in a lot of pain. I based some of my document on problems that could face, and what people can do under similar conditions.

I hope that you are never faced with problems that require you to use this document. Life can be rough and to make it a man has to be tough. I never thought that I would have to get this hard, this tough, and this mean.

It’s sad that they wouldn’t help me, and they certainly wouldn’t help me make it better. Only a few more failures on my part and they will have destroyed my personality in whole. It’s only taken twenty years of trying to break me down, destroy my ego, and humiliate me in ruthless isolation. Such effective tools.

Get Busy

Make life better for everyone so people don’t need this document. However if they make life so bad that everyone needs a copy, then I will have failed. Therefor here is the link to the document that is of use in harsh conditions. When the only thing keeping you together is your creative lifestyle; this may help!

Knowing The Path and Walking The Path

Enlightenment an Essay

Finding enlightenment can not be understood through teaching. No matter how many times you read this essay, you will not become enlightened as per se. You may be able to find a path that will lead to enlightenment. The journey is strictly up to you as your own being. That said, take this as you find it as suited to your own tastes.

Most people find thinking a difficult task. Some even feel the act of thinking is painful. Perhaps society has made the very act of thinking so difficult that most people prefer to avoid it all together. I have found that thinking can be painful emotionally and mentally.

To achieve enlightenment requires that one be able to endure a great amount of that kind of pain. The process may be worth while, but why re-invent the wheel if a simple teaching would not solve the problems with the added avoidance of unnecessary pain and suffering?

The problem is that most people are hard headed and without some amount of discomfort and pain they will not be able to experience the essence of the teaching. That said, you understand that mediation is only an exercise in controlling your thoughts and the amount of pain necessary to attain understanding. It’s not the pain that brings the understanding, but the effort that is put forth.

Training

As any athlete would tell you it takes a lot of pain in training to have the endurance of winning a competition or event. Likewise true understanding requires sacrifice of personal self and sacrifice of comfort to attain.

True understanding is common yet unrealized. Many people wonder why they have pain but don’t think of the cause of the pain and only seek comfort to the suffering. But to have true understanding a person would avoid the problem that causes the pain in the first place. So how do you find enlightenment without suffering the pain of thinking painful thoughts?

Well somethings are possible and if you’re an exceptional person you may be able to attain such a feat without suffering more than a mere headache from the effort put forth. Perhaps an extraordinary person could achieve such a feat, perhaps. I know that I would like to save you that pain that I have come to know to arrive at this point. While I may have attained a deeper understanding, and perhaps true enlightenment to a degree. If I can save others from hurting, perhaps there is a way.

No one wants to read everything I have ever talked about or written or said. No one wants the reward without the effort, or that is to say everyone wants the reward without the effort.

Beyond all teachings, there are just a few basic points. Be kind in word and deed without using or resorting to harsh words. Enjoy what you have without feeling the need for always to improve or gain more. A humble person may have less and be more happy than those who are too prideful.

Understanding The Path

Understand simple things and simple principals. Without rushing to conclusions you will find that everyday until the day you die is a learning experience that you can benefit from. With that said, don’t let a day go by that you don’t learn or think something new. May your pain be minimal and your joy be great.

The biggest mistake you can make is to think you are an expert and to rule out every possibility that you don’t agree with in the process. Because true understanding and enlightenment is more than what an expert can understand but less than a common sensible person will do by instinct. Study yourself before you pass judgement on someone else.

The Boomers Have It All Wrong

Truth!!

The world is a mess. Trying to conform to an insane world, makes you insane. The lies and deceit that make up what is normal is taking its toll. They are using double binds to complete the crazy making process. Obviously the boomers have it all wrong.

I’ve read things about Generation X, some say they are Nihilist and that they don’t give a shit about anyone but their own individual selfs. I want to paint a different picture, the problem isn’t that Gen X is a bad thing. The problem is we reject the conformity of the previous generations, that and we don’t stand for their lies.

Conformity to an insane world, makes you insane. The boomers have tried to make everyone conform to their insane ideas and way of life. Which results in looking like we are crazy because we can not reconcile their insanity with what we know and believe to be true.

The boomers live life like zombies. They want warm bodies with clean faces, they don’t want more than that from anyone. They think a life well lived is a living death. Jesus words ring true here, “Let the dead bury the dead.” We want to live. We want life better for everyone.

A Better Life

No one wants a living death. We want life to be better. This mindless zombie shit should come with no excuses. They are Wrong. The boomers have it all wrong. The living dead don’t want anyone with a dirty face. Which is hypocrisy. They have never had a dirty face, because a living death isn’t living. Therefore we reject their suspect bullshit.

Because life is meant to be lived, a living death isn’t living. There are mistakes, and problems, but without having the experience, then life isn’t worthy of living. They want to take all the fun out. And we can not stand for that. And people that make problems because they want us to fail are cruel.

No one can stand for the insanity they try to force upon us. Because, living a life that is no better than a living death is suicide. Its pointless and stupid. We must reject their stupidity at the way they want to live. Because to each their own, if they want a living death, then they should live that way. However forcing that upon their offspring is stupid.

We want more to life. We want to live, because we love life. Life gets better with use. Don’t keep life in a special box. Take it out, dust it off, and live your life. Special occasions are all the time. Our life is meant to be used. Life is not meant to be kept in a sealed box. It gets worse with being stored for the future.

For A Better Future

Make life better for everyone, be kind. Stop trying to force your insanity on us. We won’t accept it. We don’t want your idiot rules and your living death. Therefore we want life better, not their zombie cat shit.

Those that are remembered as fighting a war against zombies and idiots will be Gen X. They are the warriors and the Misfits that bring forth change. We can not allow this mess to continue, it stops here. So the future can be beautiful again.

Because war is ugly, and brings out bad things in people. This war has to end with a better world for everyone. Clearly the boomers have it all wrong, life is a gift. Use it!

Read The Advice From A Monk

Written by: Ctopher Thomas, founder MyDigitalChaos

Thinking and Feeling

Importance

When learning your way through your heart and mind, there is one thing that will change your life. To quote the famous philosopher, Aristotle. He said:

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.

This is really true when searching for your life goals and meaning in your life. You must learn how to separate your thoughts from your emotions.

If you have an emotional response to every thought then you will be very frustrated. However if you can have the thoughts and deal with them one at a time while not allowing every one of them effect your emotions, then you have reached maturity.

Heart mind conflict:

Sometimes you have to go through a long process of thinking everything through without letting it all upset you. Sure you can think anything, be brave enough to do so. Just don’t accept everything you think, and better yet; don’t let everything you think effect your heart.

The mind and heart are separate. Too many people confuse everything that think with an emotion. This is simply not healthy. If you want to be happy you have to let your heart feel love and joy. What your brain does doesn’t have anything to do with your heart.

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Please be aware, this is in no way to say you should think bad thoughts. That is up to your own morals and what you feel is right or wrong. This is only to say that you should be open to all the good possibilities that are available. Your morals determine what you think is right or wrong to think. Please use good judgement.

An Important Truth

People that do creative things. The end goal is not to become a writer, or photographer, or painter. What we really want is the journey that takes us through all of the experiences that come with being creative.

The end result is not to be just one thing, but to become a competent reasonable being; with talent, hard earned skill. What we really want is the courage to risk it, and the endurance that it builds from the long line of failures and small successes.

Not only do we want to be creative, we want to inspire others to do likewise. Secretly we are calling others to say, “Yes, I can.” It’s not about getting credit, or being most popular, it’s the adventure seeking desire inside us to dare to be outside the box.

Be Brave

This doesn’t come easy. Or cheep for thrill seekers. It takes a lot of pain, hurt, and endurance to keep going. When you write, no one reads it. After you take a lot of photographs, no one likes them. You know what you have? The desire to create. Don’t let their lack of applause stop you from doing what you love. Likes and shares are over rated anyways.

The truth is we want a better life. We believe others should have a better life too. We want them to see through the distraction of this world and build skills now. It’s not about what you did ten years ago. It’s about right now, it’s about the patience, skill, courage, and determination you have to keep going now.

Do what you can to make life cool for someone else. Most people don’t know this, you can reference William Blake who said that life is joy and woe, and when we understand this safely through life we go.

Climb The Rock

I will tell you a secret, when faced with a rock and hard place; climb that rock. It’s the only way out. You may not understand now, but someday you will. Keep going. Even if people don’t listen, and they don’t want to believe. If you believe long enough, they will come around to understanding.

Remember the advice of Rudyard Kipling, “The strength of the wolf is the pack, and the strength of the pack is the wolf.” I have been a lone wolf far too long. When at my wits end, my motto is: “Fight until I’m dead.” It’s not over, not by a long shot. So keep going, keep believing, and keep dreaming. It helps if you have some love.

You can live the life you want, do what you can to inspire people along the way. Do not strive to be famous, rather strive to be the best you possible. You don’t get credit, the rewards are from what you help others to do. Live carefully, but no so carefully that you fail to do your best. Risk normal for greater rewards, like peace of mind, meaningful lasting friendships, and love.

Today is the day!

The Last Day

Ignore Me – That will be fun

Pity – Life Should Have

Oppression Sucks

Conclusion

Example 1:

Example 2:

Be Reasonable

Proving My Sanity

Conclusion

Conclusion

The Problem:

On being like a tree

Comforts

Thus, how does one define success?

Make Yourself Better!

Be Wise, Live Smart!

Conclusion

The Basics In A Nutshell

Conclusion

Rise

In The Flux – My Digital Chaos

Start Today!!

Music

Art

Philosophy

Books

Theater

Love

Kindness

Patience

Conclusion

Watch my video

Towards The Light

You Get Hungry Sometimes. . .

Wake Up!

Conclusion

Not All Things Are Advantageous

Finding Real Reasons To Live

Wake Up!

Visions Of The Future

What could be accomplished

The Future

Selfishness

Real Progress

Space

Technology

Resources

Food

Conclusion

My Cage Needs Torn DownNotes from a steppenwolf

Part IIDoes Anyone Have A Life?Thoughts from a wolf

Thinking Outside The Box – A primer

Conclusion

Validation Systems Essay

On The Bounce, Stow that crap!

Tough Life

More to be done

What Is A Real Man

Courage

Intelligence

Honesty

Respect

Strength

Creativity

Morality

Sanity

Godliness

Cleanliness

Years

Thoughts On Being An Author

Learn To Write, Learn To Think

Results Are Few, But Worth It!!

Have Some Love

When Tomorrow Is October

Poor Instruction Make Junk

Love and Kindness

Thoughts On Validation

Money In The Bank

Having Employment

My Cage Needs Torn Down
Notes from a steppenwolf

Part II
Does Anyone Have A Life?
Thoughts from a wolf