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Thoughts On Validation – What Makes You, You?

Thoughts On Validation

A few days ago, a subject came up about someone else and how they must feel about themselves. My Mumz said the persons self esteem must be rock bottom because the only validation she seeks is online. Below are a few of my thoughts on validation.

After giving it some thought, I have reason to believe there are a wide variety of ways people seek validation. Let’s examine a few of them starting with the biggest first.

Money In The Bank

Money – Lets face it, those with money feel validated and like they are special. They have either worked for their money or they have inherited it through their family. Therefore, they are the most privileged among the humans. Because, they have special validation, because they have the power and the money. Those with the most money need no validation from poor people because they are above them.

Having Employment

Having A Job – This one is nice. You get validation from making your living and from the work that you do. It is really one of the best ways to feel valid. If you love your job and are making money at what you do then you feel a sense of accomplishment and like you have validation from doing good work.

Having Love In Your Life

Having A Significant Other – Having someone in your life that is willing to commit their whole life to you. Let’s face it, having a warm loving relationship gives people a sense of validation. Having someone that is willing to marry you and have your children is a great way to feel valid. It will make you feel like a man, it will make you want to do better because you want to make their lives better.

Having Family That Loves You – Having relationships that are in good working order and having peace of mind that there is nothing you could ever do that would make them not love you, this has a sense of security to it. Its a form of validation. Everyone needs to have family that loves them.

Having A Few Good Friends

Having A Few Good Friends – This gives you a sense of belonging and having meaning in your life. If you lack all of the above, then having a few good friends will help make up for the hurt of being poor, alone, and jobless. If you have none of the above, you are a special kind of problem.

The Problem

In my life, they have withheld the affection of giving me the validation I needed. But the realization that I don’t need their approval is such a feeling. Human society is set up so everyone needs some kind of validation and sense of belonging to live a happy life. When they deliberately withhold those things to get you to conform to their evil ways, you have to make the choice to cut them loose.

I’ve been nineteen years without a job, friends, or significant other. Been isolated, poor, and abused for a very long time. My family doesn’t care about the work I perform, and it doesn’t earn any kind of living.

I’ve decided that the human race has lost my respect.

I certainly don’t need validation from the human race that I’m any good. They couldn’t live my life. That is for sure. No one would have lived through what I’ve been through. It has almost killed me a few times.

So on matters of validation, the human race has a lot of things that make them feel valid, having money, having jobs, having love in their life, and having a dog.

What They Lost

Therefore, what they have lost is their humility and what they were supposed to be, which is human kind. They have been cruel to me. Wish it would have been better. I sure could have used some help. No one was willing to extend the offer.

Humans are victims of the insane. They couldn’t think if they wanted to.

In conclusion, what I think of them is below average. Because of the way they have treated me. They got what they wanted, they hurt me a lot. Wish they could have been kind. The world is a sick place. Seek your own salvation; friend see to it.

Those are some of my rough thoughts on validation, there is more!

Written by Christopher Thomas, founder of MyDigitalChaos.net

This post has been edited to make it kinder.

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Creative Fuel – Guide To Success

How to have more creative fuel to burn

In order to be really creative, you have to have some fuel to burn. It is the process of using this creative fuel to create new work that produces a work of art. But if you are on empty how in the world do you fill back up?

You should prime yourself with this article about Calibrating For Success, then make use of this article.

The process is different for different people. However there are some things that will help inspire you if you use them correctly. Sometimes you have to fill the tank with good stuff. Other times you have to starve the beast and let hunger do the job.

Sometimes, you have to a little of both. So what works for me is that of careful meditation. By using a thoughtful approach I’m able to have creative fuel, and burn enough that work is completed.

Have More Than One Project In The Fire

Sometimes it helps to have multiple projects. This gives you a backup plan for when things don’t go as expected. By having more than one project to work on, you can stay busy and keep your flow going. Being able to do other projects also enables you to learn new skills. If you are always pushing new boundaries then you always be growing.

If you learn new skills you will find they come in handy in other areas of your work. It all adds up in the long run.

Do More Than Humanly Possible

You have to be doing a great deal of work. This requires doing more than humanly possible on a regular basis. You have to get to be so darn good that people take notice of you and your work.

If you plan carefully, it is possible. You have to be diligent and calm and relaxed. Then you have to work your butt off like never before. It is possible, you just have to be willing to do what is difficult.

Therefore, if you starve yourself from unnecessary activity, you have more time to do good stuff.

Be Careful What You Use For Creative Fuel

Too much TV will bum you out. Try listening to a lot of music. Change your music up enough that you are listening to old and new music from a wide variety of genres. Try listening to classical when you are sleeping at night. Its a great way to effect your dreams and your mood.

Therefore, these are some tips to get you started. Find out what works for you.

Written by Christopher Thomas

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How to use technology to calibrate yourself

You can do this!!

We have a lot of tools at our disposal, the question is: Are we using them? Likely the answer is no. However we should! So ask yourself how to use your technology tools to calibrate yourself for success.

Your Phone

This is your greatest tool. Your phone is likely the most under used tool you have in your toolbox. Everyone has one, but no one is using them to make phone calls. Try to dial your contacts, and start the conversation.

Email – Use Wisely

Your email is a good tool to follow up those phone calls with. Send them the details, or more information. Be sure to ask for their email address when you are talking with them on the phone. Prepare them by telling them your email address so they expect that email coming from you.

Close the deal on the phone while talking with them. Then get their signature in writing.

The Calendar – Remember this!

The calendar is a tool that you can use to schedule appointments with. If you are planning in advance, you should have the important dates scheduled here.

There is no excuse for missing appointments! Because if you are using your tools, you won’t miss the date!

Text Messages – The instant mess!

Don’t use text messages to communicate important ideas and information. Its best to do this verbally over the phone. If you don’t want an instant mess, use sparingly. Therefore, use your tools for what they work for. Don’t expect people to know you from texting.

Having A Website

Chances are the only people that will visit your website are people you talk on the phone with, or have sent an email to. No one else is going to find your site online. So tell people about your website in person, on the phone, and via email.

Therefore, don’t expect miracles. Even with a good website, you likely won’t see results. You should plan on closing deals in person.

In Conclusion

Use all your tools correctly with a thorough understanding of them, and when and where to use each one. Therefore you can be successful, if you use them wisely. Be wise, use your mind!

Use your technology to calibrate yourself to success.

Written by Christopher Thomas, Founder of MyDigitalChaos

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How I Journaled Six Million Words

How I Journaled Six Million Words In Ten Years

Sometimes writing is a necessity. Sometimes it is for fun. I had never really started with the idea of writing a lot. I feel the minimalist urge to write better quality and a lot less dribble. My journals were an answer to a problem. To have journaled six million words takes some effort!

Yet, here I am. Some twenty years into the game. I started off writing in my journals to better understand my life, to make sense of something I couldn’t understand. Because there aren’t enough good answers in today’s world.

I do however remember a turning point. It was back in the year of 2005 or thereabout, I remember being inspired by a photograph. Back then there was a challenge to write a thousand words about a photograph. I tried it out and found it difficult to do. A thousand words about a photograph is a lot.

Then between looking at the photograph I had taken, the idea came to me; what if I write a million words about this photograph? Is such a thing even possible?

The goal seemed absurdly high. I didn’t think it was possible, yet in some small way with the seed of the idea planted in my breast, I thought, “Maybe I can.”

What It Took:

I had to design my own journal software to do it. It took a few years to work out the program and get all the bugs out of it. It’s a few simple perl scripts that work from the command line. The text editor I use to write my journal entries in is the text editor VIM. Then perl does all the rest.

It’s been a long journey. There have been a lot of ups and downs in twenty years. Some good times, and a lot of rough days. I can say that it wouldn’t have been as good if I hadn’t been writing. It would have no doubt been much worse.

My journal software is fast, clean, and addictive. It is fun to write it the way I do. Like I said, I never started off with the idea of writing more than a million words. But the snowball effect and the years have added up. And now at over six million words, I think that I understand myself better.

Understanding

And that problem I couldn’t understand, I think that I untangled it sufficiently to at least know something about it. So in some ways I guess it’s a success. I’m closer to myself these days, I just wish that I had someone to spend time with.

My journal software keeps some statistics for me. This year, I have made 961 entries. for a total of 693,006 words this year alone. My typing speed averages 61.01 words per minute, and most entries are 721 words each. The average time it takes me to write an entry is 12 minutes.

After almost fifteen years of writing in my journal, I’ve written four books which aren’t counted in the word count. I’ve also written numerous blog posts, and essays in this time, both of which aren’t counted in the word count.

Drivel Count

Maybe I’ve written a lot of drivel. I learned how to write. It only took five million words to be a better writer. I guess that is good. I’ve come a long ways.

One side effect of this mess is that sometimes my fingers go numb. Job hazards I guess. That said, it is not for everyone; and it may not be for you. For those that dare, I suggest you write your million words in a year. It is possible.

Just remember to move on, don’t stay stuck writing the same stuff week after week. Be productive, be useful. And for heavens sake, be kind in your words. We need a lot more kindness.

Maybe it was shear bloody mindedness, maybe it was being stubborn. Somehow it seems like so long ago that I set the goal. Still I need to write that million words about the photograph. Maybe someday I will.

I wouldn’t expect anyone to read them, Don’t even ask.

Buy a book.

Therefore in conclusion, there is something you can learn from it, like be wise; don’t make the mistakes I did. If you set out to have journaled six million words, plan it out. It’s been years, somehow I feel they are best left to gather dust.

Because, it was written for myself to make sense of something impossible to understand. Do better than I did, maybe your words will change the world. Because, you never know unless you try. Give it a shot.

Written by Christopher Thomas

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When Creativity Isn’t Enough

Some Advice: This was originally a PDF, now its a blog post! Written November 14, 2018.

There is a fine art in living. Living well is a mystery to most. Few have what it takes to find the secrets of life and still live a happy life. You will find that in use, the quality of life improves. It’s not enough to keep life hidden in a chest that you never take it out and only try it on during special events.

If you live that way, you will find the quality of your life deteriorate to the point that it’s not worthy of living. Like anything with life, you get better the more you use it. This is especially true of creative living.

Creative Living

If you are creative and living in a vacuum, then you will find that the creativity feels worthless and useless unless you have someone else to share the experience with. It’s not just about being told that your doing great work which at best isn’t very satisfying. It’s the shared experience that others have around your work that makes it worthy of your time.

So how do you balance your creative life with a healthy lifestyle? There is a right balance between time spent alone in doing and creating work and the time that is required to be a living breathing person that isn’t living like a zombie.

When it’s not enough that you just exist, life in a vacuum is a living hell. Only when you start living life based upon principals can you find real happiness. Life in a vacuum is worthless. You have to be able to make an impact and make a lasting impression.

Today’s World

Unfortunately today’s world isn’t made for people like me. They want mindless sheep that don’t think. To exist in today’s world you have to be able to live and learn. Learn early from my mistake. Don’t wait until you are forty to figure out what I’m talking about. If you are going to be successful, you will have to have people’s support from the start. Make your groups early. Find those that you can be of use for, and do what you can to help them; just make sure that the road is a two way street.

If you build a two way street then the traffic will flow down both sides in an orderly fashion. Then get enough people to actually use your street and then you have a working model. From there you can build almost anything that needs done and have some level of success. It’s best when there is good in all that you plan to build. It’s not about getting rich anymore, it’s about the value you have as a citizen in society. What value you can add to society as a whole, that makes everyone’s lives better. Do that!

What More Can You Want?

Creativity and intelligence alone are not enough to sustain a living life. There has to be interaction, companions, and people that are your equals in life to sustain reasonable success. If you measure your success on the benefits that society as a whole can benefit from then you are measuring the right stuff.

Intelligence alone isn’t enough. You can not sit in a vacuum and be happy long term. In some short term solutions some isolation can be good, it gives you time to think, to learn, to grow, to figure it out. However once you reach that point and you are no longer struggling to understand the meaning of life, you have to grow your social circles.

If you reach that point and can not function as a being, then you have a problem. It’s important to care for your mental health while being as productive as F**k, this requires careful balance in life and not being addicted to things that prevent you from making good use of your time. You will find it surprising how much you can accomplish with the right frame of mind.

To achieve this frame of mind, requires that you put the work in. At the very minimum, you should have written a million words to reach your first goal. In addition spending an hour doing nothing but meditation each day is only a starting point. Maybe you should spend two hours a day in meditation?

Advice

Things that grow your person:

• Reading, Writing, Speaking
• Having in depth conversations
• Talking about other’s work in a positive way
• Having physical Activities
• Pushing your limits
• Keeping Your Original Mind
• Listen to music
• Meditate daily

Things that waste your time:

• Watching TV
• Drinking and partying
• Mindless entertainment
• Idle conversations
• Complaining
• Being mean to others

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Boredom: The Plague

Boredom: A brief on it’s dangers

There is a problem with today’s modern society. While there are many problems with today’s society, specifically one that is dangerous is boredom.

Boredom is defined as an emotional and sometimes psychological state. Many of the problems in life, may stem from boredom. It has been linked to alcoholism, and drug abuse.

When people feel like life has become a living death, when boredom with the norm is so tedious that life just doesn’t make sense like it is.

Sometimes a persons environment is considered to be dull. When it seems like there isn’t any fun, or reason to exert one’s will.

Sometimes boredom is necessary. It can be used to be more creative and to inspire new work. From boredom comes new flavors and breaths new life into creative work.

New Flavors

So sometimes it’s necessary to achieve new heights. Without it, we wouldn’t know when we are tired of what is popular. The whole reason for something being popular is because it’s not boring like our current situation.

Because it has a level of excitement to it. Then when what is current becomes stale, new work replaces the old stuff. And sometimes that is enough to maintain a fresh perspective.

Really getting a fresh perspective is sometimes really important. It helps us to appreciate what we have. The danger lies when things become dull, your wits get dull, your mind gets soft and lazy. Then you spiral down in boredom, looking for a quick fix.

The only way out is to be really creative. You have to push the boundaries. Life can get the better of you if you don’t watch it. Sometimes you have to do what makes you feel alive. Life can be pretty boring. Change is of course inevitable.

Pixelated Decaf

Pretty soon everything looks like the same pixelated bits, on tv, on the big screen, heck even Netflix.

There is something to be said for having a peaceful life. It can however turn into oppressive situation if not kept in check. Sometimes you just want to dance, or play.

When boredom turns oppressive, then there is a problem. We have to make life better for everyone. This means that some people have to change their comfort levels, and adapt.

When you get too comfortable, and set in ways of being boring, first check and make sure you are not causing someone else harm. Because what one person considers heaven could be someone else’s hell.

New Balance

There has to be balance in life. Variety is the spice of life. It helps when you have some variety in your day to day living. You know, eat the same sandwich for too many years and it doesn’t taste as good anymore.

It’s important to break the habits that cause boredom in the first place, otherwise you are just living like a zombie. And that isn’t any fun. You have to get out of your routine.

Life is. Things are. Deal with it.

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New Year, The Worlds Identity Crisis.

Wake up!

The time has come. We are twenty years into this century, it’s time to wake up. Life has to get better for everyone. At the turn of the 20th century, life was very different. In a hundred years we have come a long ways.

However, we can not leave the world the way it is, and expect anyone to be happy. Therefore it is time to change. This new year, ask yourself if you are happy? What would make everyone happy?

Do you know what makes real happiness? Because it seems society has long lost its way, and the world has an identity crisis at the moment. The world doesn’t know who it wants to be. Therefor we have to understand the problem.

There are many ideas. There are many people with answers. One of the problems is getting others to agree. Because it seems like everyone is too busy to notice. Why? It’s difficult for everyone to get on the same page. This results in the common denominator and it isn’t working out.

Rise from Slumber

Life is. Things are. We want life better for everyone. Those with no understanding lack the ability to see from a different perspective. Really seeing from a different perspective helps us to see beyond our limits. Everyone should not be limited by those with no understanding. That isn’t healthy.

Therefore we need to see past our current situation, and see further into the future. We need to have some real vision for what we want.

We should all be working together to make life better. This old world may never change, however we wish it would. We need to understand. Therefore it’s time to start thinking. A lot of the attitudes and feelings in life today are carried over from previous decades and generations. Because it is time we get in the present, get current, and adjust our attitudes to the current situations.

The attitudes from fifty years ago will not help us solve the problems we have today. Because some of the skills to deal with problems have changed. The real skills have been forgotten. We do however see many with short tempers and short attention spans. Thus if we work to change our behavior, and change our attitudes, there is hope for everyone.

It’s time we get back to having patience, and some love. Therefore really having some unconditional love helps a lot. This will result in people being kinder, and we all need more kindness in life.

A New Understanding

This world’s identity crisis has reached epic proportions. It seems like there is something that needs done to make life better for everyone. Because we can not fail to make it better. Something has to change for the better. Because a lot of people have been unhappy for a long time, it’s time to wake up, and realize life can be better. Do what you can for others. Be the hand of a stranger to help those around you.

Because older generations need to relinquish their power, let younger generations take the lead. When the older generations serve as advisors to the younger people coming up the line. As a result, we will have the desired changes take place. Therefore it’s really time for old ways to change. Yes, change is difficult, and scary sometimes.

In addition, the worlds identity crisis isn’t going to fix itself. The younger generations can fix a lot of the problems. However, please don’t abandon us, just put your ego aside for a while and let the work be done.

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My Digital Chaos – Quick Guide

Quick Guide

One of my goals is to make life better for everyone. After thinking for a long time about what I could personally do to make life better, this list was compiled.

Each week we will release a new tip. So stay tuned and follow the story to help make your life better, and maybe someone else’s life better too.

The point is to stop living like zombies and start living. Pretty soon life will be better for everyone.

Watch the video here–> Quick Tips

Week 1 Journaling

Keep a journal. It’s really simple. Everyday write down either with pen and paper or by typing it, the important thing is to journal for ten minutes every day. It’s best if you can write first thing in the morning just after waking up during your first cup of coffee.

Keep a journal for a few years and always review them every few months.

Week 2 Bad TV Habits

Stop watching TV. This one is a bit tricky. Really though if you want to be happy, you have to start living. Real people get their emotional stimulation from direct interaction with other real live people. Cats get their pixelated decaf from watch the tv.

For the next year, unplug your tv set, and spend the time you would be watching tv to do something more interesting. Like learning.

Week 3 Meditate

Ideally you should spend at least an hour meditating every day. This is quiet time that you spend in contemplation. If you’re too busy to meditate for an hour each day, then spend two hours, because you need the practice.

This will sharpen your mind. This will make you smarter. And better the rest of your life. It’s worthy of doing, and will help you in your daily life.

Week 4 Practice Compassion

If you practice compassion in your daily life, with all that you go about doing, when sudden problems arise, like someone cutting you off on the freeway, you have already prepared to handle the situation. Danger lies when something catches you off guard and throws you for a loop. Be prepared and practice compassion ahead of time, that way you don’t have any surprises.

Week 5 Listen to Music

Listening to music stimulates your mind for better creativity, and dealing with life. Ideally you should be listening to music as much as possible. Make a ten hour play list, and listen to it for a year everyday on repeat.

Notice how you feel? Also you should be listening to music when you are sleeping at night. Try some classical music. It will keep you going.

Week 6 Food and Stuff

Watch what you eat. The better food you eat the better you feel. Everyone should have access to good wholesome food that doesn’t make you feel like crap. Speaking of which, when you eat, set a timer, and see how long after you finish eating before you have to use the bathroom. If after two minutes you crap your pants the food likely isn’t that good.

Week 7 Coffee

Get enough coffee. After drinking coffee for a while, notice how you feel. Drink as much as one half gallon of coffee a day. If you’re doing everything else right, this shouldn’t bother you.

Just don’t brew your coffee so weak that it looks like tea.

Week 8 PEMI

Record your Physical, Emotional, Mental, and Intellectual scores a few times everyday to track your progress. The goal is to be Sustainable and function at 100% of your capacity. If your not working at 100% then find out what is hurting your performance.

This app is available now. It’s called PEMI. Look for it.

Week 9 Creativity

Be creative. You should have some ways of expressing yourself that are positive ways to make life good. Take up a hobby doing something creative that makes you feel good. If you take up art, don’t be afraid of making bad art, just make art.

Enjoy the experience. Do something creative like writing, or making music, or drawing. Find your creative edge and work to master it. There is something for everyone. Find your groove.

Week 10 Tell Someone Else!

Blog your experience. Share your journey as you go through these processes with others. As you’re working on all ten of these items all at the same time, your growth will start to progress and you will find yourself being productive and competent.

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Remote Civilizations

In perfect weather that has been paradise for centuries, there is a group of beings that are envied through the galaxy over. These are the remnants of the buddhist monks from the twenty first century.

Being highly skilled in self control they have mastered the art of thinking, meditation, and the fruit of having done such is that they have become skilled in making of music, art, poetry, and are also exceptionally gifted writers.

After the war, most other civilizations had died off, or self destructed with a very high cost to their beings. Now in the late twenty-fifth century something has started to happen.

Peace has dwelled with me since the day that I was born. It’s been a kind world. Mostly because people have become kind in thought and deed and that the traces of hate and vile deeds has been wiped out for some three hundred and fifty years.

We have had the time to do our homework so to speak. We have found a happy balance of life, our work, and being compassionate. I’ve heard the world wasn’t always this way, but those records are sealed at the interior and no one is allowed to review them, mostly because we don’t want to go back to living and destroying ourself.

We are a happy people, our thoughts are good. Our actions are good. And in all that we do or plan there is good results that come from our actions.

The last hundred years have been a golden age of pure reason, for art, music, poetry, love, and social equality that the world may have never seen before.

We have advanced as a whole in technology and at our ability to add value to living each day. It seems everyone makes progress still despite having what many would consider a perfect system. Somehow it seems to always get better, every few years something changes and we look at wonder at how we didn’t know that already.

My parents named me after people that brought peace in the twenty-second centuries. My name is Luke Von Nance. Father a humble monk of the Shallot order is Vinderbock his parents thought he was a sour as vinegar. Mother thinks he is a sweetheart, the way he brings her fresh flowers every morning after having meditated for higher purpose. I think he finds his purpose in my mother.

Having a strong family in easy times is a cake walk. Some of the people that lived in the twenty-first century had broken families and bitter resentment and hated even among those that were living under the same roof.

Things are different now. Let us not speak of such things anymore, I fear that my thoughts of the past do not effect my soul for the better. The thoughts of my present situation have a better effect upon my psyche.

Today is nothing short of perfect. I hold no resentment towards any sentient being in this world. As my actions would show that there is perfect melody of peace within my being. And of truly awful things we leave those to the humans of the past.

Those who are dead and gone, not only in deed but memory. Their evil perished with them, and they are not remembered in this world any longer. They only speak of the hurt from the past, that living had become so painful that it’s a miracle that we survived as beings through the periods of time that we have.

Tomorrow will be the day my life changes from childhood to becoming a man. It will be the Thirteenth birthday for me, and though I am young; my skills in reasoning, meditation, self control, and peace have been instructed to me since birth.

This does not mean that I’m perfect, there is always something new to learn. However the Shallot monks of Sundogmingo know that the only learning and experience that I can gain now is what life choices I make in my life from these days forward.

Although no one is ever certain in life, there are things that I can look forward to with a satisfaction of knowing. Unless I should fall from the top of a roof while wild wolves run at the bottom of the castle; no harm will ever befall me.

I will grow from my present into a full eighty years or more before life departs upon my perfect life. I can lay my head down at night with the knowledge that when I awake I will have a full day of life ahead of me, and that it will be worthy of having lived it.

If there is one piece of knowledge that I have ever learned it is this; that love always sets you free. It does not enslave or seek to oppress others.

And as I close my eyes tonight to sleep peacefully I know that I will find happiness in my life, it has already began and tomorrow it will be confirmed with the SunDogMingo and Ma and Pa.

Chapter Two

Life unlike a dream has a certainty that can not be mistaken. The light coming in through the east window and the cool breeze that blows through the rooms west wing.

I wash my face and dress in my blue robe. Then with my head held high, but with a lowered gaze, walk into the west wing where Ma and Pa are waiting for me to appear.

“Doesn’t he look splendid today?” Ma asks Pa with flowers in her hand and a smile upon her face. “Yes, he does look dashingly radiant today.” Pa adds with glee in his step.

we eat a simple meal for breakfast, whole grains and fruit from a tree we have only one name for, which we call red white meat. The skin of the fruit is red, but once pealed it has a white fragrant meat to it. We eat them whole, and digest the seeds.

Today I will stand with the others in my group that are of the same age, with a ceremony to acknowledge my change from being a boy to becoming a man. It’s a simple day with simple pleasures to be found in living and the enjoyment of new experiences.

We walk across the plaza of Del-lima to be greeted by the others. I see a crowd of some fifty people gathered together. Together thirteen of us stand upon the stage and look out at the audience before us.

There is Nat Hanh on my left, Alexey II on my right, and his right are the twins Wayne and Bruce. On their right are Smyth, Wallingford, Grigori. On his right is Gregor, Mark, and Lucas. Griff the tallest and Benedict are furthest from me, even though we have been closest friends since I could ever remember.

It starts in a low chant, ‘O, ‘O, ‘Om. Gradually getting louder and louder and standing here now, this moment in my life seeing my friends with me, my loving neighbors in front of me, and the chanting I know that my life though pleasant will never be dull.

The chanting ended with the throwing of the balls at the fifth stanza of ‘O, ‘O ‘Om. Then we all chanted, “Om Mani Padme, Hum” for a cycle of forty-two seconds. Thereby completing a total of one minute and thirty seconds of what flashed before my eyes even while trying to slow time down, it went by all too quickly.

I had seen it while growing up, that these big men stood on stage and where celebrated by the whole gathering of SunDogMingo. Today looking at it from my eyes, I see the passing of a child and birth of a man.

Though I will live with Ma and Pa some six more years into the future. Which seems so certain for me that any other idea would be absurd.

Now we distribute through the town and in the morning we will all be assigned our stations of employment to SunDogMingo and what our responsibilities will be in the years to come.

In my peace, in the serenity of the moment; the facts did not register with me. It did not feel a lie, there was no untruth in my heart or mind. And of the village only truth was to be found.

A simple people with simplicity without needless absurdity. In the morning we would begin to work as under scans of the order in ways which are more than two thousand years old.

Chapter Three

Sitting in my final day of passing into manhood, while in meditation of the navel fruit, I discovered that perhaps something had changed within me. It is more than just a feeling, it’s a continuum of thoughts that have summed together in my life to form a new thought, and a new feeling within my breast.

The thought is atman. But the feeling is a fire that burns like a furnace with boiling water that the fire flies up and licks the water bowl clean. And then I knew the passing of my childhood a certainty and that my manhood was not only truly beginning, but evolving.

After ending my meditation, I walk to the family study, where Ma and Pa are. “There is a roaring fire within me, oh Pa will it consume me?” I exclaim upon walking into the room. Then Ma and Pa rush to my side and hold me tight, then Pa says, “We know son, we all have this fire within us. It’s who we are, it’s why we are here, and it gives us our strength, our might, and our peace.”

Then Ma takes me by the hand and sits down upon the sofa, and she says, “Now we know that you are our son, for the fire doesn’t lie, neither does the force by which we live.”

Pa still standing looks within my eyes and searching says, “You can learn to control it, to master it; to let it guide you, to protect you, to always guard you, and to be stronger than you will ever imagine.”

“It is Atman”, Ma says to me, “And now that we know, we can be sure that these are truths that we have been blessed and loved.” Pa walks through the study, doing something I hadn’t known of before, brings forth something I have never seen as if by unknown power.

Pa takes what seems to be a black box on five sides with a lightbox in the front of it, and using his finger touches the light several times then holds the box close to his ear.

“He’s ready. We can be certain. He will report tomorrow morning as we had planned. Only spare the report, and mark him for average.” Then he placed the black box back within a fold in his garment and looks at me. Then the question in my mind could not be spared, for I asked without thinking, “I’m not average am I really?”

“No son, not average. But many will have questions that need not be answered now. It’s best to keep this a private matter, we do not speak of this to the others.”

With just a look I could see that it was time for my next training and I bowed twice, once to each of my parents and excused myself to holy absolutions.

Twice my mind calculated the distance. The span of time that stretched from this morning until the moment of my awaking. It was not more than sixteen hours today. It had been one hundred and fifty-six months since I was born into this world, yet today felt like the first day of life for me.

It’s more than a feeling, it’s a living force that flows through every living, time, space, existence; if it was something you could physically see it would flow through all matter and anti-matter.

Chapter Four

Yellow leaves, blowing upon the walk; through the air and upon the branches of trees. Autumn, like a silent Om driven in. It’s not resistance to change, it is acceptance of more than star systems in flux. Ma says the tree’s are called Maidenhair tree; they have such pretty leaves in the fall.

I stretch my mind often. Sometimes slowing time and covering great distance while moving no further than in a sitting position that is motionless. The experience leaves one to ponder, there is more to life than superficial existence.

When thoughts are not painful, one is free to experience the joy of freedom of thought, and make gains from its value. Such is the life of the SunDogMingo. We simply extract the force through the fire and bring forth pure reason.

There were many things that people argued about in the late twenty first century. However pure reason can not be condemned. It what is accepted after the ash has been separated from the iron. We keep the iron, and use the ash to make soap.

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Sharper Image? Do Laundry!

A Sharper Image

Being a photographer, I can tell you one of the biggest gripes you will ever hear from talking with photographers in general is that getting a picture to look sharp enough seems impossible. Even with the best lens, the high res .jpg, and Photoshop.

Like those photographs, sometimes it’s tough to get a sharp image in your life. Sometimes it’s not the gear. I’ve worked on having a sharper image for a few years, unfortunately my teeth are still broken out.

This year has been awful tragic. Everyone has felt hurt, betrayed, and stabbed in the back. I know that my personal pain has been something off the scale of how one could define hurt. My teeth hurt so bad for a few days that I seriously thought about knocking them out with a lead pipe to make them feel better.

This is a quick review of the year twenty-eighteen. While having been more physically painful that other years to date, there are some bright spots to the dark shadows that sway.

Year of Ice Coffee

This has most defiantly been the year of iced coffee. Being that we are in December and the temperatures have been dropping in the low 30’s, I will say there have been some days that feel like three jacket nights.

I’m starting to adapt to the cold. However we haven’t gotten any snow yet, so there is just cold weather. Which is nice, because I haven’t had to run the air conditioner once in three months.

While being the year of ice coffee, it has also been the year of eating almost nothing, smoking too many cigarettes, and having lasting isolation that even though I bought fancy perfume no one cares. Well there was someone that noticed; thank you! You made my day better. Hopefully I made yours a little better too. Most the time because I never see anyone but the Starbucks Baristas in the drive thru.

The month of August was horrific. It rained everyday for a solid month this year in what could only have been the worst rains in a hundred years of history. I can attest to the fact that the rain was worse than usual.

While being mostly a physically painful year, there were a few things to smile about. I have worked on my website until I’m happy with it for the most part. Not so happy that no one seems to notice it, but happy with the design other than the home page right now. It’s temporary. I’m sure of it.

Doggies Best Year

The doggies have brought much fun and joy in walks and chasing other things bigger than them, this year. They have also discovered that the playing laser tag is the best thing ever.

I made a few friends, lost a lot more than I made. While no one that I know has died recently, there has been this dark cloud of omniscience above my social life. It almost seems like people are too busy to care. Maybe this has been the year mortals quit giving a shit about anyone but themselves?

Believe that I have spent more time in a dark room with the music on, than I have spent with friends in twenty years. That’s just in this year.

I have however written a book, and about forty thousand words on my blog in the last year. While there has been less music making that I would like to have done, the music has played save but for the power outage that lasted all of five hours. It was horrific.

Not much poetry written this year. I did however buy art from multiple artists in both painting, drawing, poetry, and writers. I also purchased some photography from someone that is doing great work!

Efforts Failed

My own efforts have fallen flat in trying to rise. I am however clawing my way forward even though it is bleak and hopeless. Most people don’t read anymore, and it’s getting more difficult to write good poetry.

When I wasn’t wasting time staring at the ceiling, I was making graphics in Photoshop and drinking iced coffee. Might have made a few hundred posts to my account this year. I just wish that I was doing better work.

I have been trying to rise, the problem seems to be that people are not interested, they don’t even really give a damn if I rise. It’s obvious. They want me to fail. No one did much to support my efforts.

There is no quitting. The job has to be done. With no excuses. Everyone has to have something good. So we wait. We work, and we make the effort to do better everyday than we did the day before. Does anyone notice? Not likely. The distance traveled through my mind has taken me to places far and near.

It has been said that, “There is no excuse” period. I believe that. So what’s the problem? In a world of people that are obsessed with perfection, there sure is a lot to be desired.

Be kind. Go for the long game, make life better for everyone.

Brief Summary

In summary, this year has been pretty crummy. To be honest, it’s been downright awful. The rain and cold wasn’t as bad as the other problems that the world went through. I won’t even go there, because it’s been a night terror.

My main gripe tonight isn’t that the photographs aren’t sharp enough, it is directly related to the problems in being able to obtain sushi on any given day and that it’s impossible to order a pizza with more than one topping.

Get real! Seriously, you used to be able to order a pizza with multiple toppings, and now you can have a cheese pizza with one topping. Why isn’t there outrage about this? I mean what has happened in our lives that pizza delivery only offers one topping with a cheese pizza?

Did they outsource pizza delivery to someplace foreign? Not to be offensive but the world of micro code, high speed pizza delivery, and movies, music, and high speed internet was the only thing still keeping society at large from turning off the tv.

Still reading? I’m hoping that this next year will be better. It’s pointless to complain, and really everything but the pizza problem is like the weather. Temporary. These things too shall pass. Good music doesn’t go out of style. Likewise good taste will come back into being fashionable.

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Creative Environments

Creative Advice

This is a short essay I wrote about creative environments. It’s not a complete book, it is however only some very basic ideas to help people get started. It is by no means complete. Hence it is not perfect. Please don’t base life upon this document. It’s not a guide, it’s not even any good. To be honest no one will ever read it, because I’m not perfect.

This is however some idea when the chet hits the fan how to deal with some tough times. Life isn’t always perfect. Neither is everyone living. To be honest my condition isn’t this bad; it just feels like it. Most days I’m in a lot of pain. I based some of my document on problems that could face, and what people can do under similar conditions.

I hope that you are never faced with problems that require you to use this document. Life can be rough and to make it a man has to be tough. I never thought that I would have to get this hard, this tough, and this mean.

It’s sad that they wouldn’t help me, and they certainly wouldn’t help me make it better. Only a few more failures on my part and they will have destroyed my personality in whole. It’s only taken twenty years of trying to break me down, destroy my ego, and humiliate me in ruthless isolation. Such effective tools.

Get Busy

Make life better for everyone so people don’t need this document. However if they make life so bad that everyone needs a copy, then I will have failed. Therefor here is the link to the document that is of use in harsh conditions. When the only thing keeping you together is your creative lifestyle; this may help!

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Generation X

What Time Is It?

Hey folks, I know it’s been a few weeks since I connected with you and actually wrote something. It’s been a few weeks because I have been doing my due diligence on working on my website. That however isn’t the only thing that I have been doing. Today I’m going to talk about Generation X, and what it needs to do.

In my downtime when not writing or writing web pages, I have been thinking about meaning in my life. A few of the most basic and simple observations are easy to bring out and highlight, however a few will require more explanation.

My generation is one that has seen some tough times. We have grown up with parents that were total control freaks or maybe didn’t care at all? This problem hasn’t gotten better with the generations that followed. It seems my Generation has been taught a lesson, we have been getting an education in the school of hard knoxs.

We had pretty good times when we were kids and didn’t take life too seriously. Maybe that is where we went wrong. We didn’t see what they were trying to do. Now we seem to be the lost generation that doesn’t connect, doesn’t have meaningful relationships, and doesn’t stop to say hello anymore.

What Day Is It?

It seems that the simple courtesies in life were too much and that greasing the wheels we’re for old people and those that were squares. In the here and now, we see that those simple pleasantries were there to keep life functioning at a tolerable level. Because without them life degenerates into something that is lonely and isolated.

Speaking of connection. One of the very things that makes life more livable is having a connection with our fellow beings. This doesn’t always mean that having thousands of connections is better. It does mean that having some connections that keep you feeling grounded in life are present.

People today have become so stiff necked that they don’t want to grease the wheels anymore. They don’t want that connection. And they are so anxiety ridden, depressed, and isolated that they wouldn’t know how to do if they wanted to.

It seems my generation is the results of what “The Who” talked about in the album “Tommy”, because they all want us to believe we didn’t see it, didn’t hear it, and wasn’t there.

It seems they have tried to silence and entire generation of people that were present and had something of value. Only to be discarded by the older generation and ignored by them. The generations that followed left us behind to die.

Did You Really Sleep That Long?

It’s time to build some new connections. The points are to get a group of people together in like minded ideas. When our generations was growing up this was met by religious diligence and being with those that were supposed to be safe for us.

Today looking around at the people I like, those I know and the people that have left me for dead. It seems that the creative people are the most kind. There should be some way to get like minded people together and make some real connections in life.

It’s about not flying to high, or too low. But staying in the middle airspace and flying where everyone can keep an equilibrium. We have to develop the skills, soar for a while and then return to the middle air space. Fly too high for too long and you get shot down. Fly too low for too long and life beats the shit out of you. But a lot of us have to rise some to keep the rest of the group happy. Too many are flying too low and no one is able to rise as a group.

We don’t want the whole generation to crash and burn, we want to progress as a whole. This means we have to make life better for everyone. If anyone can change this, it’s us. By what we do today, who we influence today. And the mark we leave behind for future generations.

Wake Up!

The problems seems to be some people don’t want us to do better. They believe that we should remain silenced, and keep our mouths shut about the problems. The problem with not thinking is that you can be taught to accept anything as being good. You don’t want to believe that being kicked in the head is right do you?

Therefore, start thinking. Use it or loose it. They have tried to do some pretty underhanded crap to us as a whole. They have divided us, kept us from grouping together. Then they made us stupid in the process. Even now, I’m wearing a lemon hat to have the brain power to write this blog post.

Wake up. Look around. The generations that are coming have problems they can not fix. They are going to need the help of Generation X and everyone’s help. The real question might be: “Are we going to be willing to help them make it better when they have shit on us?”

It’s got to get better, this world is our home, it’s not a house, it’s a home. Although, it may be a temporary home, but it’s a home all the same. And that means that we have to be able to live. We all have to make ends meet.

Have A Care!

Because, the older generations don’t give a shit about Generation X, or the world they leave behind. The new generations are so stung out that they won’t put two thoughts together. They are fortunate if they think a though through to completion.

Therefore, they need our help. This generation has the ability to change it. Get together, work together, and make team work a goal. Otherwise you’re going to be ghouls.

Get it, Got it, Good! Generation X needs to get busy!! Right Quick!

Written by Christopher Thomas, Founder of MyDigitalChaos.

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Is Solitude The Only Solution?

What Really Matters In Life

Personal Growth is one of the most important aspects to living when you wish to achieve happiness and fulfillment. Everyone seems to be an expert on how to make your life better. By just a few simple habits that when practiced on a daily basis will bring you a better life.

The problem is we have to many lifestyle coaches and not enough people that will do common sense things. Recently I read an article that while it was well written and even thought out very well. It however leaves an empty pit in my mind about what is important.

A happy and fulfilling life is one where your emotional, spiritual, and physical needs are being well met if not above and beyond what is necessary.

It’s not only possible to have your emotional needs met, it’s essential. Having your spiritual needs met can make your emotional needs feel less difficult. And everyone goes through times that are tough, so it’s important to have something to fall back on in the difficult emotional times. Everyone needs to feel their life has special meaning.

What are your real needs?

When ones physical needs are not being met then life begins to decay and it impacts the persons emotional and spiritual needs. But we have to consider these aspects through the proper field of vision to understand them and what is really important.

In matters of personal growth, all the factors have to be addressed. When someone is prevented from having growth in emotional, spiritual, or physical ways; it harms them. It can often harm them in ways that are very difficult to repair.

People are addicted to distractions. They are constantly totally addicted to not spending time with themselves. People today are going from one distraction to the next without listening to darn thing anyone really says.

The real problem today is that people don’t listen to each other. They are so distracted with their feelings and the thoughts those feelings create. With this endless feedback cycle they can not hear a word someone else has to say.

The problem is not technology. It’s not that the world is so connected that people no longer can have self control and function. The problem is that their expectations for what is reasonable is broken.

Dive Deeper

People have become so shallow and superficial that they no longer have deep meaningful conversations about life. Everything is about what is on the surface. And on the surface is just dross scum that doesn’t want anything deeper than talk about the weather.

The other problem is that people that are well in touch and connected with themselves seem illogical to people that are lost in today’s feedback loops of the heart and mind.

Those who are in touch with themselves seem far too different than those who are out of touch with themselves. We need to address these issues that people are so judgmental that they can not accept anyone being as broken as they are to stay alive.

Again, the problem isn’t with technology. It’s what and how people communicate. And what their expectations are for how they feel. People are no longer thinking, they are only feeling. When someone no longer thinks, then they can not be reasoned with because their feelings are becoming illogical. They have no way to communicate how they feel, and we need compassion for them to sort it out.

How To Change

When a being becomes a logical well reasoned and in touch with themselves then chaos and confusion seem to vanish. It becomes self evident truth that speaks to us, not the noise of what they want us to believe.

Those people that only rely upon their feelings to communicate seem like wild animals that are a danger to the rational mind.

So while being connected is good, if that connection means being away from other people that will spend physical time with you. Then you are going to feel the effects of being more isolated. Then life starts going from one dopamine rush to the next waiting for the fix that makes you feel connected again.

The solutions start in our families. With our friends, and with people that we want to reach. What is sad is when within our own social groups that when we reach out for help that the calls go unanswered. People today will try to down-play your problems as if they are not important. The key to success here is not to make small problems big ones, and always keep the small ones to yourself. Learn to deal with small problems, and only ask for help for the big stuff.

This is the biggest problem, people are dying for help and connection and for someone to listen to them. When we ask for help; no one does anything but say, “I wish that I could help you, but there is nothing I can do to make it better.”

Do Better Everyday

The real problem is everyone has pity on their lips but none in their hearts. Problems like this have to change for the better. When people reach out everyone is either too busy. Or has their own set of problems that they want to deal with and anyone else’s problems are trivial compared to their own.

The only way to stop this madness is to start giving back to others in ways that make them feel needed and useful. To bring back the feeling of physical connection, emotional connections, and spiritual connections.

Instead of trying to condemn everyone, reach out for your own personal growth and learn something new. Learn all you can about yourself as a person. Get to know yourself better than ever before. When you have mastered that, then always do maintenance in keeping what you believe in good repair.

Don’t be selfish in doing things only for yourself. Help others likewise to come to understand and think. If you teach a robot what to think, not how to think, it will live it’s whole life believing it’s not programmed from the start.